You would think I would be used to it by now – the ebb and flow of people in and out of my life, and especially my social (read: spiritual) circles. Some ebbs are more emotional than others.
When I first started organizing my spiritual Circle, I was very attached. If someone attended more than once, and then stopped coming, I would take it personally, as something I had done wrong, or upset that person somehow.
I also tended to be over-excited about my Circle, and share at inappropriate times. Like when people from a group in another city were visiting to share about their tradition. What can I say? I was young and excited. I also overextended myself “helping” people attend. Mistakes were made.
Over the years, my spirituality, and therefore my Circle has evolved and changed. Some people left because they moved away. Some people left to focus on growing their family. Some people left because our paths just didn’t line up any longer. I am proud to say that I am still on good terms with most of the people who chose to leave.
Life’s ebb and flow
Like the moon pulling the tides of the ocean, we have ebbs and flows in our personal lives. Whether it is relationships that come and go, energy levels, emotions, health or motivation, we all experience ups and downs.
A year into the COVID-19, I think we’re all feeling the ebb. I’m tired. I miss my friends. I miss my family. I have very little motivation to do anything. Did I mention I’m tired? The tide is starting to turn, as more and more people receive vaccinations, but we are not in the clear yet.
Working with Demeter has made the current ebb both more challenging – I am feeling the profound grief and loss more than ever – and easier – a burden shared is a burden eased, and working with this Goddess is a comfort. We each know what the other is going through.
I have faith that I will get through this, that WE will get through this, and that the flow will return. The seasons turn, spring is here, and Persephone returns to her mother.
Breathe in. Breathe out. Expand. Contract. Ebb. Flow. Breathe in. Breathe out.
I’ll be taking a break from writing for a week (or more). Spring Mysteries Festival is just over a week away, and all of my energy will be there for the next little while. I hope you’re registered! Until next time…