It’s been many years since I was dubbed the Prosperity Priestess. This came about after years of financial literacy training, attending courses, reading books, and studying about abundance and scarcity.
I did the work. I looked at my beliefs, and changed how I looked at and interacted with money. I also made some pretty colossal mistakes – overextending myself as the economy went into a major recession. I’m still cleaning that up.
Last week was pretty awful for me. Depression reared its ugly head, and stole a few days from me. I missed meetings, I cried, and I argued with my husband. I was sick, and I slept.
Imagine my surprise when I recognized that my brain had pulled out all the old tapes about scarcity and started playing them again – the ones I thought I had gotten rid of years ago.
Looking back with open eyes and an awake brain, I can see that it just caught the wave from the world around us. People are afraid of losing their health, their jobs, their homes, their rights, and their identity (pandemic and civil uprisings, especially Black Lives Matter).
My brain latched on to that vibe, and basically said, “Oh, hey! I know that song! I used to play it all the time! Let me dig out my tapes so we can sing along.”
Except for me, the facts don’t fit the story. I have not stopped working since the pandemic started. My employer is actively looking for ways to keep staff employed, including revamping our business model. I have money in my bank account, and so do my husband and my son. We have food in our cupboards, and more growing in our garden. We live on a large island that has been minimally impacted by the virus, while still maintaining supply lines for goods. Vancouver Island has held peaceful protests in support of the Black Lives Matter movement, with no looting or rioting (that I know of). I live in Canada, which has decent healthcare.
I really am very blessed. My world is abundant.
I know that isn’t the case for everyone, including people I care about very much. I know that any of those circumstances could change in the future. However, if they could change for the worse, why couldn’t they also change for the better?
We live in a spiralic universe. Our lives, our lessons, our experiences are not linear – they move in cycles. We never come back to exactly the same place. Even when it looks or feels similar, we are at a different level of the spiral.
Looking for the abundance and blessings in my life helps me feel grateful, which in turn brings me out of fear. I don’t know about you, but I’d rather live in abundance and gratitude than fear and scarcity.
Blessings,
Mary
Living in gratitude and appreciation for abundance.