My Kingdom for a WORKING Time-Turner

Last year a friend of mine gave me a Time-Turner for my birthday. Unfortunately, it was a toy, and not an actual working Time-Turner.

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I mark the hours every one, nor have I yet outrun the Sun. My use & value unto you, are gauged by what you have to do.

For anyone who doesn’t know what a Time-Turner is, (I’m sorry you’re so sheltered!) it is a device in the Harry Potter series that allowed Hermione to attend extra classes, do all of her homework AND get some sleep by turning time backwards and allowing her to re-live the same hour twice. Oh, and she used it to save the day in “Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban”.

As much as I might have needed a *working* Time-Turner last year, I’m wishing for one even more this year.

I’ve been stepping down from many of my commitments in the past month. This is a big deal for me. I generally want to do ALL THE THINGS. I hate having to say no. I want to experience and accomplish so much, letting any opportunity pass me by is difficult.

Big goals require big energy and big focus. I can’t say I’ve had big energy or focus lately. I’ve been feeling like the White Rabbit from Alice in Wonderland lately – “I’m late!” I’m barely keeping up with my workload. And look ahead? Ha!

I was home sick for two days last week. That’s unheard of for me. Usually I’m back up and running after one day, if I even get sick at all. Even my body was telling me to slow down.

After breaking down in tears last night – again – over something that wouldn’t normally upset me that much, I had to take a closer look at myself. I could take the easy excuse and say that Demeter’s energy was affecting me. That may be part of it, and it’s not the whole picture.

The bigger picture is that I am upset with myself. I haven’t been giving ANYTHING the time and attention I would prefer. So I looked at what is really important to me and scaled back again.

I’m always amazed at how good it feels to decommit from something. I put pressure on myself to keep all these balls in the air – no one is looking down on me wondering why I’m not doing more.

Please don’t be surprised if I miss a blog post here or there over the next couple of months. I’m working on maintaining my sanity and relieving some of the pressure I have put on myself.

How about you? How are you handling your commitments? Are you putting too much pressure on yourself?

Blessings,

Mary

 

Breakdown!

This week I had a breakdown. Yep, positive, optimistic me turned into a basket case. Not for very long, but it was long enough to force me to reassess my boundaries.

Thankfully, it's behind me now.

Thankfully, it’s behind me now.

It started with lack of sleep, which led to a cold, which led to me choosing extra sleep over doing yoga in the morning. Add a couple of events at work that elevated my stress level, and caving in and eating stress foods (read: crap), which only made me feel worse instead of better. I think PMS played a role, too. All of it combined to the perfect storm – a storm of tears and sobbing. It wasn’t pretty. It wasn’t comfortable either.

I’m still recovering from the last of the cold, and working on catching up on my sleep. I’ve also had to work on alkalizing my body after eating so much junk food for the better part of a week. And eating some better foods. (Thank goodness for Bolthouse Farms Green Goodness smoothies.)

I had a rough couple of days at work, but once I calmed down, or surfaced above the wave of overwhelm (could even be depression), I was able to calmly talk to my manager about ways to shift my workload and get some assistance there. I’m very pleased that I was able to stay calm as I talked with her, especially because there is no way I could have done that just 24 hours before.

I’m also going to reduce my workload on the blog here. I have a lot going on in my personal life leading up to Spring Mysteries (Easter for the rest of you), so I’ll only be writing once a week. I may even take some time off altogether closer to Easter. I have to make sure I take care of myself, though.

I also have a question for you – what’s going on for you right now? What would you like to learn about, or hear more about from my experiences?

Blessings,

Mary

Keep It Simple – You’re Doing It Wrong!

Last summer, as you know, I took a course with a friend and mentor of mine, Rachel Flower. My goal at the end was to have a group coaching course created and ready to launch.

Well, that didn’t happen. Last week I wrote about a lot of the fears and negative self talk that came up from another friend’s challenge to get startes. I was feeling a little defeated and overwhelmed.

keep it simpleThe steps I took last summer helped me to get a concept, an idea and the steps of a system. I had some trouble with the order of the steps at first, and that kept me stuck for a while. But what was really holding me back was thinking about the time I needed to create a finished product.

The example that Rachel gave and the standard she set was very high. She took us through an eight-part course that had videos, handouts, homework and two phone calls every week. It was pretty intense.

I was going to cut myself a little slack – I am only going to have one phone call a week in the course I am going to run.

Right now, I have none of that content prepared. So you can understand why I was shaking in my boots at the thought of having to create that much content every week on top of my job, my family, my circle, and, you know, sleeping. I’m lucky to get two blog posts out every week!

Rachel came to my rescue though. She reminded me that I don’t have to have all that right out of the gate. It’s OK for me to start with something smaller, and work up to a longer, more intensive course. I can keep it simple.

I don’t think I was intentionally making it complicated as an excuse not to do it. I really was stuck in the thought of having to create after the model I was shown. That was the effect though. The project was so big and overwhelming I just couldn’t seem to get started on it.

Now that I have permission (my own permission, not anyone else’s) to make it simpler, it’s not such a big deal. I still have a bit of planning to do, and then I will be ready to go with it early in the new year.

Where in your life are you making things harder than they need to be? Is it an avoidance technique, either consciously or unconsciously? How can you break it down into smaller steps, or scale the project down so it is not so overwhelming? What can you do today that will move you in the right direction?

And keep your eyes out for an announcement from me coming soon!

Blessings,

Mary

Christmas and Birthdays and Yule, Oh My!

It’s Sunday night, and I’m in the middle of making cupcakes for my youngest son’s birthday party tomorrow.  His birthday is later this week. Tomorrow night, I will be going to the Christmas party for my work.

Earlier today, we went to a Solstice Celebration and potluck.  Last week, I went to a surprise birthday party for a close friend of mine, and my middle son’s Christmas concert.  And earlier this month was my husband’s birthday.

It seems like this time of year is exceptionally busy, and not just for me.  Everyone I know has multiple events, invitations and gatherings.  I also happen to be a last minute Christmas shopper, mostly because of the other events earlier in the month!

While Santa day looms up ahead of me, this year I am extremely grateful that I have my meditation practice and now my Life Coach to help me keep my balance and stay centered.

The feeling of overwhelm has threatened to, well, overwhelm me several times in the past few weeks.  And I have been so much more able to catch myself as I start to drift into the anxiety because I start each morning with meditation and intentions.

And in my coaching session just this morning, my coach pointed out that I am accomplishing a lot, and I have more time to work on my projects coming up very shortly.  Thank you, Hazel!

Oh, and hot chocolate helps too! 😉

What are you doing to keep your cool during the “silly season”?

Blessings,

Mary