Oh. My. Goodness. This past week and a bit has been quite the roller coaster ride, and NOT the fun kind.
It all happened so fast. One moment, we were hearing about events unfolding in other countries, knowing the virus would soon make itself known here. The next, we’re under quarantine. Deal with it.
It’s not like I didn’t know it was coming. I thought we would have a little more time, though. Or at least a little more time between each stage of the lockdown. Every day it was another announcement, a little more dire.
I’m in emotional shock. Between Spring Mysteries Festival going virtual (which I had quite a bit of grief around), to my work closing down (I’m still working from home, because we have a LOT of events to reschedule), I’ve been in get sh!t done mode. Focus on the task at hand. Crisis management mode for two weeks.
Meanwhile, there’s a part of me that hasn’t fully processed all the changes. This is really happening. People I know are getting sick and dying. I can’t hug my friends and family, beyond those in my own house. School is closed for the rest of the school year, at least.
I’m having flashbacks to when I went on medical leave because of a toxic work situation – I can’t focus, or fully relax. One moment I’m madly cleaning, and the next I’m avoiding everything by playing Sudoku. I want to cry, or scream, or sleep, or be creative, and I just can’t seem to do any of it.
Yes, I am taking care of myself. I’m not looking for advice or sympathy. I share partly to process it for myself, and partly to let you know that if you are feeling any of this, you’re not alone.
It’s going to take some time to adjust to this new normal. And on the other side of this, I don’t think we’re going to be the same as we were before. I hope most of those changes are for the better.
Blessings,
Mary
PS. If you’ve ever been curious about attending Spring Mysteries Festival, but didn’t want to or couldn’t travel for any reason, you have a once in a lifetime opportunity to experience it this year for a tiny fraction of the cost and without leaving the comfort (and safety!) of your own home. What are you waiting for? Go register!