Rough Retrograde

I don’t normally give much energy to Mercury Retrograde. I acknowledge that it is happening, notice tech or communication glitches, and move on. I certainly don’t expect to have lots of problems.

This retrograde was like a punch in the gut.

A lot of my issues around money and security have been brought to light, and not in an, “well, that’s interesting” kind of way. See, while I call myself the Prosperity Priestess, and I’ve done a lot of work around my own money beliefs, as well as my language about abundance, every once in a while I get stuck in Scare City.

Last week was one of those moments. My income was jeopardized. Not all of it. A small portion of it in the grand scheme of things, really. But for about 24 hours, it may as well have been everything.

I yelled. I cried. I freaked out. It wasn’t pretty.

And slowly, I came back to myself, my connection to Source, my abundance.

Not much has actually changed. We shuffled some resources and the bills are paid. The immediate needs are covered, and there is time for other solutions to present themselves before the next needs are upon me.

I could have chosen, in my panic, to believe that the Universe was against me, that I had some karmic debt to pay, or worse, that I was a bad person who would never “get ahead”. And yep, all those thought passed through my mind.

Thankfully, I chose not to believe them. I remembered my belief that I live in a supportive Universe. That even if I did have a karmic debt to pay, I also have put a lot of positive out that will come back to me. And my finances do not define me, or make me good or bad.

Mercury Retrograde often brings up lessons that we think we have learned and put behind us. For me, this time, the lessons of abundance and scarcity are the ones that came up. My foundation was rocked, and yet I am still standing.

What lessons did Mercury bring up for you this retrograde?

Blessings,
Mary