Back on New Year’s Eve, I did a reading for myself for the coming year. It’s not something I have done in the past. I don’t really like reading for myself.
The card I drew for January was the 10 of Swords. Not a very encouraging way to start the year! As we draw near the end of the month, it’s certainly been appropriate, though.
As the year came to a close, I ended a friendship with someone who had been part of my life for many, many years. It was an incredibly difficult thing for me to do, because I had invested a lot of time, energy and love into this person. Unfortunately, the relationship had turned sour quite some ago, yet neither of us were fully able to admit it.
So I wasn’t terribly surprised by the 10 of Swords appearing. It means the end of a conflict, or a conflict coming to a head. It can also predict things getting worse before they get better, but once everything is out in the open, there is hope for healing.
A few short days later, I received news that a dear friend of mine, whom I had not seen in a while, had passed away. I was shocked and saddened, and spent a full day grieving. Several other members of my Circle were close with this person, and after my day of grief, I checked in with them.
Though DF (dear friend, or deceased friend?) was pagan at one time, they had been going to a Christian church most recently. Their family is also Christian, and planned to have a service there. Because many of my Circle only knew DF as a pagan, we wanted to have a ceremony to honor them in our own way.
That ceremony was Sunday night. We didn’t choose the date because of the lunar eclipse, though it sure was fitting! We drummed and sang, and honored DF’s memory. Then we feasted and watched the eclipse. It was beautiful.
I’ve had a lot of loss this month, and I know many others have as well. The lunar eclipse had many (including me) feeling exceptionally emotional. Fear not. The month is nearly over. The season is turning and the days are getting longer. The light is returning
Hang in there! You can do it!
Blessings,
Mary