Is This What “Relaxed” Feels Like?

I really don’t want to jinx myself. I think I may be starting to relax. De-stress. I’m not feeling as frantic as I have for the past… longer than I care to admit.

frog-on-back-relaxThis past week has been wonderfully therapeutic. I gave myself a ginger foot bath; the rash and scaliness on my feet that has been present since sometime in June is gone. I had an epsom salt bath. I’ve done yoga in the back yard several times.

I have slept in until the luxurious hour of 8 am, or even 9 am! I’ve gone to bed when I’m tired, and a couple of times stayed up late just because I could.

I spent a day and a half (or two days?) reading ElfQuest online. I have to refresh my memory so I understand what’s going on in the Final Quest!

I completed a sweater coat, so I finally have one to sell. Maybe one day I’ll be as fast as Katwise at making them. Or maybe not.

And I’ve still had things on my schedule. I’m working on coordinating (with the help of several others) Vancouver Island Pagan Pride Day. I’ve been reading tarot at the Pier Street Market, and I’ll be trying out a new Market in Black Creek tonight. I’m teaching classes online. And I work one shift a week.

I am, however, not scheduled to the max. I have time to sit, to read, to decide how *I* choose to use my time, in this moment, rather than having chosen that a week or more ahead. I can decide, today, as I wake up, what I want to do today. Which goal do I choose to move toward?

Today, I think I will do a little work for Pagan Pride, perhaps take some sweaters apart, read some more ElfQuest, do a little writing, and prepare for a great Market this evening. That sounds about right.

It’s taken a month for the frantic-feeling to wear off, for the tension to begin to release. And it is SO refreshing!

It suddenly occurred to me – this is what TIME-FREEDOM feels like. This, this is what I’ve been working towards. This is what I have been craving. And I really appreciate it! (I feel a little like William Wallace right now – FREEDOM!)

How long does it take you to relax? And what do you find relaxing?

Blessings,

Mary

 

 

A Taste of (Time) Freedom

I’ve been off work for almost seven weeks now, and it has flown by. I’ve done a lot this summer – I’ve started this blog and video challenge, and I’m about half way through. I’ve recorded videos and recorded meditations, written one course and come up with a concept for another course I plan to teach. I’ve gone to the beach, and spent time with my children, and had surgery. I’ve attended Pagan Pride celebrations in two different cities. I went whale watching!

There are also a lot of things I didn’t do this summer. Things I had hoped to accomplish, and for whatever reason, just did not get to. There are meditations and courses I wanted to write, and meditations I wanted to record. I had planned to do yoga, and travel a bit more. Even though there is still a lot I would like to do and experience, summer vacation is almost over. The children go back to school and I go back to work next week.

Free TimeI am so grateful for the abundance of time that I had this summer. I have had a taste of time freedom, the freedom to choose what I do with my time. One of my major goals ever since I began this website has been to earn enough from my coaching and guided meditations to have time freedom. It takes a lot of effort and learning to be successful, and to be honest, I am still learning how to market myself. I’m still discovering what my message is and how to share it with the world.

That little taste has definitely left me wanting more! Though there were days I felt I didn’t achieve much, I learned that I have the discipline to put energy into and work at my business every day. I was finding my balance between work and play, filling my cup to spill over to others, planning ahead and taking advantage of opportunities that arose in the moment.

I could bemoan how challenging it is going to be to go back to working for someone else, to trading my time for money. Instead I am going to treasure the memory of this summer, and hold it as an example of what I am working towards. And I think I need to add the words “TIME FREEDOM” to the vision board hanging above my desk. I may not be there yet, but I am well on my way!

What is one of your big goals, and what are you doing to realize it?

Blessings,

Mary

Redefining Free Time

Law of attraction teachers will say that to receive what you want, you have to know what you want. Be very clear about it.

For several years now, through coaching, meditation and journalling, as well as other tools, I have working to get clear on what I want. For me, it boils down to these three things:

  • Time freedom
  • Raise my vibration
  • Earn my living from my spiritual work

I’ve been actively working towards these three goals for over two years.

Free TimeRecently, I’ve noticed just how jam-packed my schedule is. Added responsibilities at work, rehearsing for a play, extra-curricular activities for my boys, and my own regular activities have left me with very little free time. That first goal feels ever so elusive right now!

One of my core beliefs is that my outer world is a reflection of my inner world. So it occurred to me during my morning meditation last week that perhaps my lack of free time has something to do with how I am thinking and talking about time.

I thought about that for a little while, and sure enough, all of my language about time was negative. “I don’t have time for that”, “when have I had time”, “in all my copious spare time” (read that last one with a heavy dose of sarcasm).

The past few days, I’ve been thinking about how I can change my thinking about time. It’s not been quite as clear as I had hoped. The first thing I need to realize is that I have chosen all of the things and activities that I am currently involved in.

I choose to go to work (the biggest allocation of my time) in service to my family, so we can continue to have a place to live and food to eat.

I chose to audition for the play, and then to accept the part I was offered. And I really am having fun and enjoying the new relationships I am building.

I chose to enroll my boys in karate, to encourage physical activity and self discipline.

I choose to continue writing my blog, and organizing my spiritual circle, and coach my clients. It fills me with joy to witness others grow and expand.

I really have more freedom than I thought I did, once I stop and re-frame how I see my time being used. Time freedom is more about who I am choosing to be, than what I am doing with my time.  Choosing to be in love and gratitude, no matter what I am doing, is my mission for this week!

Blessings,

Mary

PS. Happy Thanksgiving to everyone in Canada!