I believe that when a message comes to me several times in the space of two days, the Universe is telling me to give my attention to that message.
Last week, that happened to me. My coach asked me if I had offered up my challenge. I read the chapter in Anatomy of the Spirit: The Seven Stages of Power and Healing about surrendering personal will to Divine will. And I had a session of Akashic Record Clearing in which we talked about surrendering.
When I speak of surrender, I’m not talking about running up a white flag and calling it quits. I’m more meaning a spiritual surrender – saying, “OK, Universe. What I’m doing obviously isn’t working. I give up. You can handle it.”
For a control freak like me, that can be easier said than done. It’s one thing to say to the Universe, “You take over.” It’s another thing completely to really let go of control; to stop worrying and trying to manage all the details.
It’s that last bit I’m finding challenging. All week I’ve been pondering how to truly let go. I’ve meditated, and asked for guidance. I listened to a guided meditation someone else wrote, and it didn’t quite do it for me.
I can’t tell you that I had a sudden moment of release. Gradually, little by little, the clenched fist in my heart has been letting go. I’m not 100% there yet. It’s something I’m still working on. And I’m also starting to trust that the Universe will take care of me. Things that would have sent me into a panic last week, are not such a big deal this week. And I’m finding myself saying, “I’ll worry about that if it happens,” a lot more frequently (rather than obsessively trying to plan for all the potential outcomes).
When I think I have to figure it all out, I limit the Universe. I am discovering that as I surrender control, I am more open to receive guidance, and I am acting on that guidance. And I leave myself open for better things to come to me.
An interesting image just came to me. By being clear about what I want, it’s like I’ve gotten in a taxi and told the driver where I want to go. By trying to control how I get there, it’s like trying to drive from the back seat. I just end up fighting with the driver!
As I let go a little bit more each day, I feel that I am moving ever closer to a manifestation that is bigger and better than I imagined. The best part is, I don’t have to figure out how its going to happen!
PS. I did finally receive a guided meditation to help with surrender. I’ll post it up when I get it recorded.