Discovering my Patron God

Several years ago, I went to a workshop about finding your patron God and Goddess. One of the things that was touched on in the workshop was that if any mythology has intrigued or interested you for a long time, then chances are that the deity involved in that myth is one of your patrons.

I have worked with many different Goddesses over the years, and a couple of them stand out as ones I would call my patrons, like Inanna, and more recently Hecate and Athena. These are Goddesses that hold more than a passing interest for me, whose mythology I can see elements of in my life. They are the ones that I have felt a personal calling to work with (well, in Inanna’s case, I felt claimed by her…)

When it comes to the male aspects of deity, though, I haven’t ever felt that connection. There’s no one God that stands out for me in mythology.

In the workshop I went to, the instructor led a guided meditation to meet our patron God and Goddess. We visited the Goddess first, and it was Inanna who spoke to me there. I had already established a relationship with her, so I wasn’t surprised at that. However, when the meditation moved on to meet our patron God, she told me to stay where I was. I protested that I wanted to meet the God I was supposed to be working with, and she told me that I am meant to work with the Goddess, and to look to my consort for the God energy.

I was a little disappointed at first. And then I accepted it, since it was the Goddess who spoke to me more strongly. Also, as a woman, I could relate better to the female aspects of the Divine.

Fast forward to about a year ago. I started feeling out of balance. I started feeling like it was time for me to start working more with the God energy. Still, none of the Gods called to me. When I would think about different Gods – mostly Greek, since that’s where the Goddess energy I am working with is right now – there was no resonance. At best I’d get a “meh” feeling, if not an outright “NO”.

In one of my meditations, I asked Hecate why I couldn’t find my patron God. She told me that the Goddess chooses her consort. Meaning that I had to make the choice.  This may be a bit sacrilegious, but I couldn’t help feeling that none of them were up to my standards.

ThothJust last week I was doing an assignment for one of my classes at the Seminary. It was another guided meditation. In it, I met Thoth, the Egyptian God of wisdom and knowledge. As soon as I saw him in my meditation, it was like instant recognition, resonance, aha. I thought, finally, here is a God that can match me (and the Goddesses I work with).

I asked what took him so long to reveal himself, and he said I wasn’t ready before. Fair enough. I’ve never really felt a strong connection with Egyptian mythology. So I’m going to have to do a lot more research and study to learn more about him. Thankfully, Thoth is the right one to ask for help with that!

What Gods or Goddesses do you feel a connection with? Which ones would you like to learn more about?