Heigh Ho, Heigh Ho…

It’s back to work I go.

Heigh HoI’ve been (mostly) off work for the past 6 weeks. I say mostly because I have had one shift a week, and some Union things to deal with. I can’t believe it is over already. Today I am back to full time hours.

This summer has been a contrast from previous layoffs. Previous summers were marked by me freaking out about how we were going to make ends meet, and trying to squeak the most out of every penny.

I’ve been a lot more relaxed this summer, for a few different reasons. Part of it is likely that we’ve survived twice now. And yes, there were some rough spots, and we got through them. Part of it is that I opted not to apply for Employment Insurance this summer, due to several circumstances. So I wasn’t having to look over my shoulder and make sure I was dancing to all of their rules and regulations.

A big part of it, though, is that I looked ahead, and started reading tarot at the Pier Street Farmer’s Market back in May. And I will probably continue until it ends in September.

The tarot reading has been much more successful than I expected. I was worried that I wouldn’t make enough on my own to cover my expenses for the booth, so I enlisted the help of a friend so we could split the costs. I needn’t have worried. It’s been doing great – and I have a tarot party coming up!

So while I have still been mindful about how I am allocating my resources, I’ve also been a lot more relaxed about it.

I’ve also accomplished most of what I wanted to achieve while I was off work. I wrote a new course that I will be teaching at the Woolston-Steen Theological Seminary. I made another sweater coat, and I’m working on a third. I have material for more. I enjoyed time with my parents while they were out visiting. And I’ve spent some time with my husband and children.

I tell people all the time to trust the Universe and it will provide. This summer has been living proof of that for me, and I am abundantly grateful.

Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU UNIVERSE!

Blessings,

Mary

Learning to Trust

Not long ago, I would have said I am pretty trusting. I tend to take people at face value, until and unless they prove me wrong.

Learning to TrustIn one of my classes, we were given an assignment to visualize how different our lives would be if we had complete trust in the Universe. Let’s just say that visualization painted a vastly different picture of life than the one I am currently living.

As I meditated on the idea of living in perfect love and perfect trust, I came to the realization that I try too hard to control situations and outcomes. I have a strong need for security, and that comes out as controlling, plotting and planning. And worrying. Lots of worrying.

Then Goddess reminded me that She’s got it covered. My job is to ask and visualize the result. It is not my job to figure out the how. My job is to trust Deity and take the inspired actions that come from listening with trust. It is not my job to plan out all the minute details and possible outcomes.

It was a lot easier to come to the realization than it was to implement. Just meditating on it in the morning wasn’t enough. I wrote the word “Trust” on the inside of my left wrist so I could see it throughout the day and be reminded of what Goddess had told me. I renew the ink regularly.

That one small reminder has made a big difference. There is a lot of stress and change at work right now. It’s one place where I have been expending a ton of energy worrying and planning (trying to control the outcome). Now I actually catch myself in the worry, and I let it go right there. I remind myself that Goddess has my back, and I ask that everything work out in my highest good and in the highest good of all.

Nothing has actually changed at work. It is still stressful, and I still find myself getting frustrated at times. But my reaction to it has changed. I remember to trust in Deity, and that’s a whole lot less draining.

Don’t get me wrong. It’s still a work in progress. I think that writing is going to be on my wrist for a while. And progress is still amazing!

Do you trust the Universe – the Divine? How do you stay on track?

Blessings,

Mary