The Countdown is on!

I can hardly believe it is almost Spring Mysteries (Happy Equinox, by the way). This coming weekend is the last rehearsal before we are on site for the Festival. Which means I have less than a week to finish my costumes, and my husband’s costumes, and a few other details.

persephone returns by madam monte cristo

persephone returns by madam monte cristo

I’m feeling the pressure! I’m tired (it’s been a really long run this year). I’m feeling cranky, because stress. I’m making good bad choices – I REALLY want junk food, because I tend to eat my stress – but instead of getting Cool Ranch Doritos, Dr. Pepper, and peanut M&Ms, which are all full of foods I am nit supposed to eat, I am getting salt & vinegar chips (the ones WITHOUT milk – and as an aside, who needs milk products in salt & vinegar chips???), and kombucha.

I wonder if Persephone feels like this every time she goes between Underworld and Earth?

You won’t hear from me now until the week after Spring Mysteries Festival. I’ll be up to my eyeballs in preparation, and then recovery. See you on the other side!

Blessings,

Mary

Setbacks = Ebb and Flow

It’s been a particularly rough week for me. The upswing of last week led to a pretty epic crash.

It started with my husband being called away for business on very short notice. Well, we knew the possibility was coming, just not exactly when. Ultimately, this is a very positive thing, as it will bring more financial abundance into our home. However, it also created a bit of a resource crunch in the short term.

cry to relieve stressWith resources – both time and money – at a premium, I found myself falling into overwhelm very quickly.

There was no one big thing that tipped me over the edge. It was a mountain of little things – work, school, children, budget, car troubles, Halloween costumes, meal planning, after-school and -work commitments and no husband to help sort out the details. All of a sudden I couldn’t deal with it.

I spent a day in tears. I cried about nothing and everything. Maybe that’s exactly what I needed.

I’ve been a single parent before while my husband has been away for work. I have the utmost respect for those who are single parents all the time. Every time he’s away makes me appreciate all the things he does when he is here.

On Halloween night (Samhain for Wiccans), I found out that the leader and founder of the Aquarian Tabernacle Church (and one of my mentors) passed away. His health had been declining for quite some time, so it really wasn’t a great shock. And still, it added to the stress levels.

On Saturday, the brakes on my car died. Thankfully, I made it home safely. And I have a friend who is helping with the repairs, and another who is lending me her car while mine is getting repaired. Overall, I am really blessed, and the challenges still add to the stress.

It’s a challenging time of year – moving into the darkness. This year autumn has been more challenging for me than many in the past. I don’t know how I would get through it without meditation and my spiritual practice. I’ve also been doing a lot of deep breathing. And I’m going to talk to my naturopath about my health to see if there are other imbalances caused by the stress levels.

What have you found to be your best help with overcoming the ebb and flow of stress?

Blessings,

Mary

Breakdown!

This week I had a breakdown. Yep, positive, optimistic me turned into a basket case. Not for very long, but it was long enough to force me to reassess my boundaries.

Thankfully, it's behind me now.

Thankfully, it’s behind me now.

It started with lack of sleep, which led to a cold, which led to me choosing extra sleep over doing yoga in the morning. Add a couple of events at work that elevated my stress level, and caving in and eating stress foods (read: crap), which only made me feel worse instead of better. I think PMS played a role, too. All of it combined to the perfect storm – a storm of tears and sobbing. It wasn’t pretty. It wasn’t comfortable either.

I’m still recovering from the last of the cold, and working on catching up on my sleep. I’ve also had to work on alkalizing my body after eating so much junk food for the better part of a week. And eating some better foods. (Thank goodness for Bolthouse Farms Green Goodness smoothies.)

I had a rough couple of days at work, but once I calmed down, or surfaced above the wave of overwhelm (could even be depression), I was able to calmly talk to my manager about ways to shift my workload and get some assistance there. I’m very pleased that I was able to stay calm as I talked with her, especially because there is no way I could have done that just 24 hours before.

I’m also going to reduce my workload on the blog here. I have a lot going on in my personal life leading up to Spring Mysteries (Easter for the rest of you), so I’ll only be writing once a week. I may even take some time off altogether closer to Easter. I have to make sure I take care of myself, though.

I also have a question for you – what’s going on for you right now? What would you like to learn about, or hear more about from my experiences?

Blessings,

Mary