Is This What “Relaxed” Feels Like?

I really don’t want to jinx myself. I think I may be starting to relax. De-stress. I’m not feeling as frantic as I have for the past… longer than I care to admit.

frog-on-back-relaxThis past week has been wonderfully therapeutic. I gave myself a ginger foot bath; the rash and scaliness on my feet that has been present since sometime in June is gone. I had an epsom salt bath. I’ve done yoga in the back yard several times.

I have slept in until the luxurious hour of 8 am, or even 9 am! I’ve gone to bed when I’m tired, and a couple of times stayed up late just because I could.

I spent a day and a half (or two days?) reading ElfQuest online. I have to refresh my memory so I understand what’s going on in the Final Quest!

I completed a sweater coat, so I finally have one to sell. Maybe one day I’ll be as fast as Katwise at making them. Or maybe not.

And I’ve still had things on my schedule. I’m working on coordinating (with the help of several others) Vancouver Island Pagan Pride Day. I’ve been reading tarot at the Pier Street Market, and I’ll be trying out a new Market in Black Creek tonight. I’m teaching classes online. And I work one shift a week.

I am, however, not scheduled to the max. I have time to sit, to read, to decide how *I* choose to use my time, in this moment, rather than having chosen that a week or more ahead. I can decide, today, as I wake up, what I want to do today. Which goal do I choose to move toward?

Today, I think I will do a little work for Pagan Pride, perhaps take some sweaters apart, read some more ElfQuest, do a little writing, and prepare for a great Market this evening. That sounds about right.

It’s taken a month for the frantic-feeling to wear off, for the tension to begin to release. And it is SO refreshing!

It suddenly occurred to me – this is what TIME-FREEDOM feels like. This, this is what I’ve been working towards. This is what I have been craving. And I really appreciate it! (I feel a little like William Wallace right now – FREEDOM!)

How long does it take you to relax? And what do you find relaxing?

Blessings,

Mary