Living the Nine of Pentacles

I call myself the Prosperity Priestess, and I want to let you in on a little secret. I’ve made mistakes when it comes to money. I mean, I’d love to say that I’m rolling in the dough and you can, too, if you just follow these easy steps…

pot of goldWell, that’s not true. If I said that, I’d be pitching you a pipe dream. I would be no better than a snake oil salesman. That’s just not in integrity for me.

The truth is, I’ve made bad investments. I’ve been in debt way over my head. I’ve worried how I’m going to pay all my bills. I still have moments when I engage in retail therapy. I will be the first to admit I’m not perfect. I’m a work in progress.

Lately, I’ve really been feeling like I’m living the Nine of Pentacles. I’ve worked hard, and I’m at a place where I have some ease. Not a lot of ease, a little. Enough to not sweat the small stuff, anyway.

It’s a lot of work to maintain, though. Full time job, teaching in the evenings, reading tarot on the weekends, making the occasional sweater coat… It takes effort. And, it’s what I need to do (for now) to live the life I want to live.

For example, last weekend we went on a family trip. I had saved up some money, and I was prepared. At least, I thought I was. It is not cheap feeding six humans on a road trip! Especially when one of those humans (me) has food restrictions. So when the brakes also needed to be replaced on our vehicle this past week, and it was more expensive than anticipated, I almost panicked.

Almost. A few years ago, setbacks like this would have put me in a tail spin. I would have been freaking out, or getting depressed, or panicking, or all of the above. I didn’t fully trust the Universe to support me. I didn’t really believe there was more than enough. Oh, I said the words. I just didn’t live them.

Now, I’m a lot closer to living that. I feel the stress, and then I remind myself that I live in a supportive Universe, that I am worthy, and there IS more than enough. I remember that I don’t have to be the one to figure out the how – that’s not how manifestation works. I have to put the intention out there, hold a positive expectation, and use the tools and skills I have to work to make it happen.

I finished a sweater coat late Friday night to have ready for the weekend markets. I stayed up late, and got up early to make it to travel three hours to the market on Saturday. And lo and behold, that coat found it’s home this weekend, and we earned enough money to keep moving forward; to take a deep breath and not panic.

It has taken a lot of work to get to this place – a lot of work on myself, changing my beliefs and my mindset; and a lot of physical work at my job and my passion. I’m not where I would like to be. Yet. So I will keep doing the work and know that it gets better and better.

Wishing you lots of abundance and blessings,

Mary