Who Needs Sleep?

I have this song from the Barenaked Ladies going through my head:

The lyrics of the chorus are:

Who needs sleep? Well, you’re never gonna get it.
Who needs sleep? Tell me what’s that for?
Who needs sleep? Be happy with what you’re gettin’
There’s a guy who’s been awake since the Second World War.

For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been falling behind on my sleep.  Not lots, just a little bit each night.  It adds up fast, though.  And then, Daylight Savings Time hit.  And I chose to stay up that night watching movies. Now I am paying the price.

Each morning it has been getting more and more challenging to get myself out of bed.  I want to sleep a little bit longer. And now I am starting to notice the effects it is having on my meditation.

I’m having trouble focusing.  I always start my meditation session by grounding and connecting with the earth.  The past couple of days, I have had a really hard time even doing that much without my mind interrupting me for something.  It’s wandering all over the place chattering on about this or that, visualizing what happened in the book I read or the movie I saw, playing the same songs over and over and playing the “What If” game.

This last one is particularly frustrating.  Because the mind’s job is protection, when my mind starts playing the What If game, it usually comes up with disasters.  What if I don’t have money to pay that bill?  What if I can’t get the time off I want?  What if my alarm doesn’t go off?  What if an earthquake happens here? What if…well, you get the idea.

Logically, I know that many of these things are never going to come to pass.  And energetically, I know the What If game is sabotaging me manifesting what I want to create in my life.

So this week, the request my coach made of me is to GET MORE SLEEP!  Getting the proper amount of sleep is a way of honoring myself, one I have not been taking seriously.  I certainly haven’t made it a priority.  This week, it is my priority.  Only an emergency is going to keep me from getting a good night’s sleep.

That’s the plan anyway.  Wish me luck, and I’ll let you know how it goes!

Blessings,

Mary

Meditation Confessions

Meditation ConfessionsI’m not perfect.  I am a perfectionist, but I’m not perfect.  So I want to let you in on some of my secrets regarding meditation, in the hopes that you will find encouragement, and stick with it through the challenges.

My meditation practice was sporadic until a few months ago. I talked about meditation, and I would do it some mornings…if I felt like it.  And sometimes at night, before I went to bed, I might meditate.  Maybe.  And I would sort of meditate when I sat down to write a new guided meditation.  But it wasn’t until someone I met at a course said to me, “You’ve got to treat it like diarrhea.  If you had an appointment to meet the president, and you had diarrhea, you’d take care of that first.”  She was speaking of yoga for herself, but I took it to heart for meditation.  Now, every morning, it’s the first thing I do.  Every. Morning.

I sometimes fall asleep while I am meditating. It depends on how much sleep I’ve been getting, and how rested I am.  Some days, the alarm goes off, and I just want to go back to sleep.  But I am treating it as the most important thing, so I sit up, and put on my headphones, and begin my meditation.  And then I wake up a half hour or 45 minutes later… 🙂

I use brainwave entrainment music to help me meditate. When I used to meditate with nothing, after about 15 or 20 minutes, my mind would start acting like a young child in a car: “Are we there yet?” I couldn’t resist opening my eyes to look at the clock and see how long I’d been sitting there.  Now, with the music, I know the pieces are each one hour long.  If the music is still going, I’m not done yet.  And if the music has changed, it’s time to get up (for those mornings when I fall asleep…) Here’s the music I use.

I can’t always quiet my mind. Some mornings, it is easy. A few deep breaths, ground, connect, and voila…bliss!  Other mornings, my mind is quite the chatterbox.  No matter how many times I remind myself to just be here now, or ground, or focus on my breath, my mind goes chasing off after some thought or idea, and it just won’t be still.  Some days I just have to stick it out and know that tomorrow will be better.

I hope that helps encourage you in your meditation practice. If there is anything else you struggle with, leave a comment and let me know.  I’ve probably experienced it too!

Blessings,

Mary