I Surrender!

I believe that when a message comes to me several times in the space of two days, the Universe is telling me to give my attention to that message.

Spiritual SurrenderLast week, that happened to me. My coach asked me if I had offered up my challenge. I read the chapter in Anatomy of the Spirit: The Seven Stages of Power and Healing about surrendering personal will to Divine will. And I had a session of Akashic Record Clearing in which we talked about surrendering.

When I speak of surrender, I’m not talking about running up a white flag and calling it quits. I’m more meaning a spiritual surrender – saying, “OK, Universe. What I’m doing obviously isn’t working. I give up. You can handle it.”

For a control freak like me, that can be easier said than done. It’s one thing to say to the Universe, “You take over.” It’s another thing completely to really let go of control; to stop worrying and trying to manage all the details.

It’s that last bit I’m finding challenging.  All week I’ve been pondering how to truly let go. I’ve meditated, and asked for guidance. I listened to a guided meditation someone else wrote, and it didn’t quite do it for me.

I can’t tell you that I had a sudden moment of release. Gradually, little by little, the clenched fist in my heart has been letting go.  I’m not 100% there yet. It’s something I’m still working on.  And I’m also starting to trust that the Universe will take care of me. Things that would have sent me into a panic last week, are not such a big deal this week. And I’m finding myself saying, “I’ll worry about that if it happens,” a lot more frequently (rather than obsessively trying to plan for all the potential outcomes).

When I think I have to figure it all out, I limit the Universe. I am discovering that as I surrender control, I am more open to receive guidance, and I am acting on that guidance. And I leave myself open for better things to come to me.

Back Seat DriverAn interesting image just came to me. By being clear about what I want, it’s like I’ve gotten in a taxi and told the driver where I want to go. By trying to control how I get there, it’s like trying to drive from the back seat. I just end up fighting with the driver!

As I let go a little bit more each day, I feel that I am moving ever closer to a manifestation that is bigger and better than I imagined. The best part is, I don’t have to figure out how its going to happen!

Blessings,

Mary

PS. I did finally receive a guided meditation to help with surrender. I’ll post it up when I get it recorded.

Control Issues

Hello.  My name is Mary, and I have control issues.

Not the stereotypical”EVERYTHING MUST GO MY WAY!” kind of control issues. There are some things I just don’t care about. Like the nightly dinner time conversation:

“What do you want to have for dinner?”

“I don’t know.  What do you want to have?”

But I’ve never been completely drunk, because as soon as I start feeling tipsy, and like I’m losing control, I stop. (That, and I don’t really like the taste of alcohol…) I just want to have control over my life.  I didn’t think that was asking much, really!

Apparently, the need for control leads to a lot of struggle.  And a fair bit of disappointment.  I speak from experience.  Take my guided meditations for example.  I had the idea that over my holiday break from work, I was going to get pages written for every one that I had completed recording.  There are nine of them.  It is now more than two weeks past my time off, and there are three pages up.

Why is that? Because life had different plans for me–time spent with my children, helping a really good friend, another project with a high priority to finish (meaning I was getting paid for it). And I caused myself pain by feeling guilty about not getting my website done. I still cause myself some pain about it.

But I’m getting some pretty clear messages from the Universe that it is time for me to let go of that need to control.  I need to go with the flow, and follow where I am led.  Besides getting that message during meditation, the other day the daily message on my Marianne Williamson Daily Wisdom Calendar said:

“Until your knees finally hit the floor, you’re just playing at life, and on some level you’re scared because you know you’re just playing.  The moment of surrender is not when life is over.  It’s when it begins.”

I’ve also been drawing a Crystal Ally Card each night before bed.  Three nights ago, I drew Aquamarine -Release.  The description said,

“Give away the energy of control, and have faith that the Universe will use that energy to create what is in your highest good. Allow the light of Spirit to enter and fill your body and mind.”

And then today, as I sat down to write this post, another friend needed some healing.  So two hours later, I’m now back at it, and mulitasking.

So I’m working to let go of control, and go with the flow. How am I doing that?

  1. Breathe and get centered.
  2. Tune in to my intuition, Divine Wisdom, Higher Self.  This feels like an opening of my heart.
  3. Ask for input.  “What do I do next?”
  4. Listen for the answer.
  5. Act on the message I receive.

Yes, sometimes this is a lot easier said than done.  And sometimes I completely forget to do it. Like I said, I’m working on this one. The Peaceful Woman Maui Passage has a whole day devoted to this lesson. I’m very much looking forward to that when I go back in February. And my youngest son is an awesome teacher!

Blessings,

Mary

PS. I just read my “Notes from the Universe” for today, and got a good chuckle!

Expecting “end results” – such as wealth and abundance, health and harmony, friends and laughter – in broad brush strokes, is part of the secret formula, Mary, for manifesting the life of your dreams.

Expecting your path to follow a certain route – such as writing a bestseller to accumulate wealth, having a particular someone fall in love with you, or insisting upon this idea, that diet, or the other invention to be your deliverance – is just plain messing with the cursed hows and severely limits my options… (I hate when that happens.)

Cool?
The Universe

PS. Release any expectations you may have of how you think your dreams will come true, Mary, but by all means, with every fiber of your being, expect that they will, as you busy yourself enjoying who and where you already are.