Back to Mundane Life… Sort of

I’m finally back from Spring Mysteries Festival, and it’s taking me a while to recover. It’s always challenging returning to the mundane (“normal”) world after spending the better part of a week in magical space.

Persephone Returns HomeI think this was more challenging than in the past because I really pushed my limits this year. Besides being the Vessel of Persephone, I was also the ritual director for the event, and I was part of a couple of other rituals leading up to the main rituals on the weekend.

Leading up to Spring Mysteries, I had already drained my reserves pretty low. I’ve been working with my naturopath to figure out what has been causing fatigue, and we are finally getting closer. However, I’ve been dealing with fatigue for months, and keeping a very busy schedule in spite of the exhaustion. There was only one weekend I had off rehearsals since January, and that weekend was spent sewing costumes.

The week before I left for Mysteries, I stayed up late every night to get the final touches on my (and my husband’s) costumes finished, and packing everything we would need for our week plus trip. We arrived at the last rehearsal ready to drop.

I recovered a little during the couple of days between final rehearsal and the event itself. The cold I had been fighting off for weeks threatened to take me out, but I managed to ward it off, using every natural remedy I had on hand.

The event went BEAUTIFULLY! There were only a couple of minor hiccups that were barely noticeable. Many said the event was one of the best yet. My Circle mates made me proud with how much they helped with the clean up on the final day.

And then, I crashed. I was pushing through, because there was more to be done, when Bella came and took my hand, and told me to come with her. She made me rest, and took care of me, and so many people loved on me. It was absolutely, positively, exactly what I needed. I cried and cried and cried from the release. There wasn’t anything wrong, there just wasn’t anything LEFT.

Once home, I slept, and had a massage, and went to the chiropractor, and slept. I ended up taking an extra half day off work and slept. On the weekend (I had a weekend!) I slept until noon, or almost noon. I allowed myself to NOT get into any of the projects I’ve been putting off until after Mysteries. I read a book that had nothing to do with Greek mythology, or self help, or school (it was an autobiographic look at one woman’s family and their experiences with residential school in BC).

I’m back to work now, and teaching, and so many other things. The Goddesses are with me, behind the veil, though I can feel them and connect when I want. I can feel that my energy reserves are still low. I’m working to rebuild. We’ll see how long I can keep still the pace slow slower than it was.

Blessings,

Mary

Breakdown!

This week I had a breakdown. Yep, positive, optimistic me turned into a basket case. Not for very long, but it was long enough to force me to reassess my boundaries.

Thankfully, it's behind me now.

Thankfully, it’s behind me now.

It started with lack of sleep, which led to a cold, which led to me choosing extra sleep over doing yoga in the morning. Add a couple of events at work that elevated my stress level, and caving in and eating stress foods (read: crap), which only made me feel worse instead of better. I think PMS played a role, too. All of it combined to the perfect storm – a storm of tears and sobbing. It wasn’t pretty. It wasn’t comfortable either.

I’m still recovering from the last of the cold, and working on catching up on my sleep. I’ve also had to work on alkalizing my body after eating so much junk food for the better part of a week. And eating some better foods. (Thank goodness for Bolthouse Farms Green Goodness smoothies.)

I had a rough couple of days at work, but once I calmed down, or surfaced above the wave of overwhelm (could even be depression), I was able to calmly talk to my manager about ways to shift my workload and get some assistance there. I’m very pleased that I was able to stay calm as I talked with her, especially because there is no way I could have done that just 24 hours before.

I’m also going to reduce my workload on the blog here. I have a lot going on in my personal life leading up to Spring Mysteries (Easter for the rest of you), so I’ll only be writing once a week. I may even take some time off altogether closer to Easter. I have to make sure I take care of myself, though.

I also have a question for you – what’s going on for you right now? What would you like to learn about, or hear more about from my experiences?

Blessings,

Mary