This applies to so much of my life right now – finances, work, school, home, emotions.
Yesterday was a beautiful, sunny fall day. I did something I haven’t done for a very long time (too long, to be honest) – I went for a walk in the woods. I definitely haven’t found the right balance of exercise and nature recently!
It’s been raining here, so the path was really muddy. The creeks and the puddles were full. Leaves blanketed the ground, and the sun dappled through the mostly bare trees.
I thought a lot about my husband – when he’s here, he walks that path pretty much every day. I miss him. He supports me in so many ways. I know that he is still supporting me as much as he can. It’s much more challenging from across the continent, though. That’s a definite balancing act – supporting each other physically, emotionally and spiritually.
Another delicate balance I’ve been thinking about lately is the balance between active manifesting and surrendering.
First, I have to be clear about what I want. I want a reliable vehicle, preferably a minivan, to be able to get my children to school, me to work, and our family on our occasional trips. By reliable, I mean one that is in good running order. I want it to fit within my budget, or have my budget expand to accommodate the acquisition of the vehicle.
I need to take steps toward making it happen. Wishful thinking and visualization alone won’t necessarily bring about the change I seek. I need to be on the lookout for vehicles that will work. I can research which vehicles fit my needs.
The conundrum comes with that action. I start trying to work out HOW I’m going to manifest my ideal vehicle. I can wish to win money. I can apply for loans. What if that’s not really in my highest good? I don’t have the biggest picture because I am in the middle of my own life. If I push too hard on a specific solution, I may miss an easier or better opportunity that the Universe would present to me…if I weren’t so caught up in solving the problem on my own.
I’m working on that delicate balance of taking action, and letting the Universe take care of the how. Besides, it’s considerably less stressful when I’m not worrying about how it is going to happen. And that helps the delicate balance of my emotions!
Though if you hear of anything, please let me know!