Under the Influence

I’m a goody two-shoes, a prude even. I’ve never smoked a cigarette, and I have never been full out drunk. On the very rare occasion that I do drink alcohol, I rarely get past “tipsy”. Pot smoke gives me a headache. The one substance addiction I do allow myself is sugar, and sometimes caffeine. I know. Pretty hardcore stuff, right?

The influence I am talking about here is the influence of the Gods. In my case, it is Goddesses. They act on my psyche in sometimes subtle, sometimes very obvious ways.

For example, when I was working with Hecate, I started feeling like maybe it was time to get another dog. It has been several years since we had a dog, and I kind of miss cuddling and playing with one. I grew up having a dog in the house. And then I remind myself that I really don’t have time to take care of a dog. My children already complain that I don’t spend enough time with them. Not to mention the extra costs for feeding and keeping a dog healthy. But one day I went as far as looking on the local SPCA website to see what kind of dogs were available for adoption. Hecate is very strongly associated with dogs. Dots connected.

Athena, Goddess of WisdomRight now I am working with Athena. And the more I work with Her, the more I see Her influence in my life. I’m taking online courses, and doing a lot of reading on mythology and Greek architecture and sculpture. My book choices are all non-fiction, even the audio books. I’m feeling a desire to champion a cause (because I have SO much spare time to do that). I spent most of the day yesterday picking the fringe off a piece of fabric strand by strand because I want to use it for a sewing project (Athena invented weaving).

And if I really think about it, the Goddess of Wisdom has been an influence in my life for many, many years. I was always a good student – learning comes easily for me and I enjoy learning new things. I also love sewing – I haven’t learned weaving, yet, but the idea intrigues me. There was a point where I wanted my own spinning wheel and loom (and then I had three boys). She’s the patron goddess of cities, and while the idea of self-sufficiency is wonderful, I am definitely no farm girl!

Sure, some of these could be pretty obscure references, and could be applied to a lot of different Goddesses. And still, somehow, working with Athena feels like coming home. (Does that make me a hero? She also helped most of the heroes of Greek mythology.)

What Gods or Goddesses do you find yourself coming under the influence of?

Blessings,

Mary

Sacred Selfishness

While I was taking a break from blogging, I had several opportunities present themselves to me. For example, I got to spend time with two of my spiritual mentors. That was definitely a positive!

choices and prioritiesThen there were the future opportunities. Like being part of the Human Library project at the PuSh Festival in Vancouver, or auditioning for the local production of The Vagina Monologues. Or studying more, and teaching, at Wiccan Seminary. Or being more involved with the Spring Mysteries Festival.

And once upon a time, I would have said yes to all of them. Then, in the middle of it all, I would have been falling apart and wondering why I took it all on in the first place.

One of the things I learned while I was away was that this might be a consequence of working with Inanna. She wasn’t satisfied with being the Queen of Heaven and Earth. No, she wanted to do and have ALL THE THINGS. I can totally relate. There are so many things that I would like to do or experience. Being a mortal has its limitations, though.

So I’m working on reassessing my boundaries, and taking my limitations into consideration. There are certain things that still need to happen – like going to work, and serving my coaching clients and students and my Circle. And advocating for my son to get the help he needs in school.Then I can decide on the other things I would like to do.

Part of that process involved determining what my priorities are. What do I really want to do? What would I be upset about if I didn’t get to do it? I realized that I really wanted to learn more through the Seminary, and I want to be involved in the festival. Those were my top priorities after my family, my Circle and work.

I love being able to contribute to my community. And it is not always easy for me to say no. I am starting to embrace the idea of “sacred selfishness”. That sometimes I need to do what is right for me, even if that may be at the expense of someone else. By serving my needs, and making them sacred, I am serving my community. Because I cannot contribute to my community if my cup is empty.

When was the last time you examined your priorities and your commitments? Post your comments below!

Blessings,

Mary

Working With Hecate

HecateHecate is the patron Goddess of my church – The Aquarian Tabernacle Church of Canada. I never felt called to work with her, until I went to visit the Mother Church (aka The Tab) in Washington last June.  Then, it was like she tapped me on the shoulder and said, “You’re finally here. Good. Follow me.”

And when a Goddess taps you on the shoulder like that, it is usually a good time to give her your attention.

I’m working on a meditation featuring her right now. I had actually written one several years ago, but my computer ate it. I only had the very beginning – no real journey, no closure. I guess She didn’t like it. So I’m starting over. Only, I’m having a hard time getting started. I think I have added one paragraph in the last 24 hours. Which is why I am writing about it, and Her, here – to get the inspiration flowing.

When I was at The Tab, I read a poem to Hecate that really touched my imagination and inspired me. Perhaps re-typing it now will help inspire me with the meditation.

Daily Prayer for Guidance

Blessed Goddess Hekate
Please continue to show me the path I am meant to walk
And alert me to choices open to me along the way,
So that I may fulfill my own chosen destiny
And make the most of the skills and talents I’ve been given.

Please continue to guide me,
Through symbols and dreams,
Intuition and synchronicity,
And keep me safe and strong,
Healthy and inspired
So that I may follow you, serve you,
And learn whatever you would teach me.

Please keep me under your watchful eye,
And your divine protection,
Lighting my way with your torches
Surrounding me with a shield of light,
That I may walk with confidence,
Knowing that you guide me and guard me,
Now and always.

~Krysta S Roy, Bearing Torches, A Devotional Anthology to Hekate

Where do you turn for inspiration when your creativity isn’t flowing? Share what inspires you in the comments below.

Blessings,

Mary