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About Mary

I am a Priestess, a Healer and a Mother. I have three children, and a circle of spiritual people who lovingly refer to me as “Mother Mary”. I have studied Usui Reiki, Emotional Freedom Technique and Quantum Touch healing. I have led a spiritual Circle for nine years.

My mission is to help others uncover the Divine within themselves, to reconnect to their Soul’s wisdom, and to help them find their path.

Housekeeping

I am a terrible housekeeper. No, seriously. I suck at keeping my house clean. Now, it’s no pig sty. There are no mounds of garbage, or unknown items growing a consciousness of their own.

Sure, the occasional leftovers get left in the refrigerator too long. And there are cobwebs near the ceiling. And I almost never dust. Or the candy wrappers stack up in my boys’ room until I get so frustrated that I go in and make them clean. It takes me quite a long time to get to that point, though.

old flower crownI’m awful about having too much clutter. Things come in, and I just set them aside to deal with later. Clutter stacks up in around my desk, in my room, and, let’s just be honest. It builds up everywhere. Because frankly, most of the time I just have too many other, more important things to do than clean.

Last week, the new mattress that my husband and I ordered over a month ago finally arrived. (A new mattress is such an amazing blessing!) We’ve had a king size mattress since I was pregnant with my middle child, because we co-slept with the boys when they were wee. Now that our children are no longer so small or sleeping in our bed, we thought it might be nicer to be closer to each other once again. And not be separated by a huge lump in the middle of the mattress!

So we downsized to a queen mattress. Which also meant new sheets, and while we were at it, new duvets. (Partly because the boys REALLY needed new blankets, and it was just as easy to pass our old duvets down. And while we’re in the aside, yes, we have separate duvets. I think it is a great idea for any happy marriage! And can I just say, OMG! Wool duvet!)

A smaller mattress means more space in our room, provided I dealt with some of the clutter that had built up. I planned for that, though. We bought a platform instead of a box spring, and voila! Tons of storage space under the bed!

However, part of the reason I don’t clean often is because when I do, I’m thorough. VERY thorough. I had to wait until I had a day to poke away at the cleaning and rearranging and cleaning some more. Today was that day. (Thank heavens for statutory holidays!)

releasing the oldI swept. I washed the floor. I moved boxes. I swept off boxes. I cleaned the many layers of dust off of (some of) my storage containers. I wiped down (parts) of the walls. OK. Maybe I wasn’t as thorough today I as I have been in the past. Still, I was more thorough than others might have been!

My room is tidy. (Well, tidier than it was. Just don’t look at the tops of the dressers… I’ll get there.) I released some things I don’t need any more – some shoes, clothes, papers, a list of wishes from 1997 (all of which I’ve received), and a flower crown that I made on my first Peaceful Woman retreat in 2008.

I can’t promise it will stay so neat. I can’t promise that my whole house will get cleaned, at least not in the near future. And it still feels good to do a really good job on at least a little bit of it.

Blessings,

Mary

A Weekend “Off”

I had this weekend off. Well, more “off” than scheduled. Kind of?

Relax-and-get-shit-doneFriday night I did nothing. That’s not true. I bought some fabric for a commissioned project, and I bought fabric for new curtains for my office. Then I watched a movie. And read a novel. It was glorious.

Saturday, I slept in. In the afternoon, I read tarot at a customer appreciation event for Ocean Mountain Yoga, where I’m going to be taking some classes in the near future. I ended up being there much longer than I had originally planned, because I had a list of people who wanted readings, and I wasn’t about to walk out with people still waiting.

Saturday evening was our full moon ritual. It was lovely, and fun. While I was leading the ritual, along with my husband, ritual is something that fills my cup. Spending time with friends and spiritual family, connecting with deity, sharing what I’ve learned – these things fuel me. Oh, and I made the most wonderful smelling prosperity oil!

Sunday and the time change, meant I was able to stay in bed as long as I wanted, sleeping in and taking my time waking up. I went through and cleaned up my front entryway, and cleaned out my linen closet in preparation for my new mattress coming this week. It felt so good to release some old junk!

In the afternoon, I went out and did a tarot reading, and went looking for a headboard. Who would have thought it would be so difficult to find a bookcase headboard??

In the evening, I watched The Matrix, and The Matrix Reloaded, while making the curtains for my office. I am so excited to put them up tomorrow!

I also did laundry. So. Much. Laundry. And, it felt really good to get some things washed (like my boys’ bedding) that has been needing it for quite a while.

That was a low-key, relaxing weekend for me! LOL! I really appreciated all of the rest, and I still feel like I accomplished a lot.

How was your weekend?

Blessings,

Mary

Sickle, Spirit Fairs, and a Seance

To say this month has been busy would be an understatement. From Hekate’s Sickle Festival, to two Spirit Fairs in a row, and culminating in a seance as part of our Samhain celebration, I’m ready for a real day off. Which won’t come until next weekend. sigh

It’s been an amazing few weeks, though. I’ve been pushing my limits, and I’m not talking about the stamina this marathon of activity has required.

At Sickle, I was a little nervous. Actually, I was very nervous. I was leading two big meditation/visualizations for the whole group of participants (over 100 people). I generally sit down and write out what I’m going to say before leading a meditation, and I didn’t have time to do that before the event. I knew the basic points I wanted to cover. For the most part. And this was outside my comfort zone.

Ultimately, the first ritual I led, flying to Atlantis, wasn’t really something I could have scripted ahead of time. I had to go with what people were seeing and experiencing. And from all reports, people loved it. The flying ointment that my good friend Cece of Studio Esoterica made for the ritual definitely helped!

The next night I led a past life regression for the group. That was a bit more challenging, because each person was in a different place, meaningful to them in their own past. I didn’t receive as much feedback from that one, so I hope it was also meaningful.

The weekend after Sickle, I attended a Spirit Fair in Coombs. I took the plunge and increased my prices. That step was recommended to me about a year ago, and I just wasn’t quite ready. Something has shifted though. I’m more confident in my abilities, and I feel my readings are worth the higher price. The time was right.

This weekend was the Spirit Fair in Campbell River, which I organized. There was a lot of last minute connections and updates and coordination, and it all worked out amazingly well! The turnout was fantastic, and all of the vendors did well!

After the Spirit Fair, we had our Samhain celebration and potluck. As part of the ritual, we held a seance, allowing those who had beloved dead they wanted to speak with to communicate through the priestesses. It was a peaceful ritual, and we laughed a lot during the potluck following the ritual.

Today, I am exhausted. My body knows the heavy work is done, and it is time to rest. I spent a lot of the day in bed, and my body hurts. Time to be gentle with myself and work to recover.

Blessings,

Mary

Giving Thanks Once Again

Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends in Canada!

It’s a happy coincidence that this holiday always falls on a Monday, when I post here. It is such a wonderful opportunity to count my blessings.

I am grateful for my husband. He is so supportive, and loving, and encouraging. We’ve been married for over 21 years, and we are still very much in love. We’ve been together through some challenging times, and always found ways to overcome them, together.

I am grateful for my children. They are all turning into amazingly fine young men. They are affectionate, and helpful, intelligent and handsome. I feel so lucky and blessed to be their mother.

I am grateful for my parents and my sister and her family. We don’t get to see each other nearly often enough, and yet, I know they are there, loving and ready to support us in any way they can. And I am grateful for all the help and love they have given us in the past.

I am grateful for my spiritual family. They teach me, they guide me, they learn from me, and they love me. And I love them. I am grateful for the sense of purpose I receive from my interactions with them.

I am grateful for my job, for the challenges and the flexibility, and the financial stability that it provides my family. I am also grateful that the environment has improved since two short years ago.

I am grateful for my students. They push me to learn and grow, to expand my understanding and continue to walk my path.

I am grateful for the improvement in my health, for recognizing the foods that were harming me and the will to limit them.

I am grateful for ALL of the abundance in my life – an abundance of love, of food, of shelter, of opportunities – financial, growth, spiritual, kindness, generosity…

I have so many blessings. How can I be anything other than grateful?

May you be blessed this Thanksgiving, with an abundance of blessings.

Mary

In the Flow

This week I had a wonderful reminder of being in the flow of abundance and opportunities.

As (almost) always, my week was scheduled to the hilt. Meetings and classes and work and… well, you know the drill.

I’m also organizing the Campbell River Spirit Fair. Because I’m crazy. Because it is a fundraiser for our Circle. I want to make sure it happens, and I had agreed to it a year ago. It is such a fun event!

I’ve had a couple of email money transfers for that event, and another for work that I’ve done, just not show up in my email. I’ve had to request that they be re-issued, which is unusual.

The last time it happened, my friend pointed out that I needed to unblock my acceptance of money – somehow I was repelling it!

That won’t do. No, it won’t do at all.

So I put on the Lakshmi mantra. And immediately reminded myself that I am a child of the Gods. Abundance is my birthright. I am in the flow.

The email money transfer came through. A friend needed kitchen help for a fundraiser, so my boys and I went to help with that, and we will be paid for that work.

I am back in the flow.

It’s not always that easy. Fear and scarcity thinking definitely block the flow of abundance, and those mental spirals aren’t always easy to get out of.

I have a set of affirmations that I use when I find myself succumbing to the itty bitty shitty committee:

  • I am a child of the Gods with Infinite Worth.
  • I am always taken care of.
  • God and Goddess love and accept me.
  • I am always more than enough.
  • The worth of my soul is great.
  • I now fully accept myself.
  • My body is now in perfect balance.
  • I am always healthy and strong.
  • Everything I touch prospers.
  • Other people experience their worth when they are in my presence.
  • Everything works together for my highest and greatest good.

(Adapted from The Creation Course by Tony Lister)

You can adjust it to suit your beliefs. For example, you might say “I am a child of God…” or “God loves me and accepts me”. It’s pretty powerful for fighting off the brain weasels when they run amok, and not just when it comes to abundance.

May you be in the flow as well!

Blessings,

 

How important is it?

The autumn equinox has just passed, and so balance is on my mind. Day and night were in equal balance for just a moment, and now we tip into the dark time of the year, the Underworld.

Equinox by Molly Costello

Equinox by Molly Costello http://www.mollycostello.com

Actually, balance has been on my mind for a while now. A couple of weeks ago, at our Full Moon ritual, we used my Balance Guided Meditation to reassess the priorities in our lives.

And I’ve had a few conversations with friends recently about how to balance all the parts of our lives. We all seem to be so busy! Working more than one job, doing things on the side to make ends meet, going to classes (or teaching them) in the evenings, making time for family… Where’s the me time? What about exploring things just because we WANT to? Or the things that support our overall well-being?

The question that keeps coming up for me is how important is it? (And then the refrain from Walk Off the Earth’s song These Times: “I just don’t want it, I just don’t want it enough I guess”, which is totally me when it comes to exercise… I want to, but I don’t want it enough.)

For me, my spirituality and spiritual practice is vital. Being a priestess is an essential part of who I am and what I do. I can’t turn that part of myself off. I am sad and disappointed when I have to miss rituals or festivals. My spiritual family is as important to me as my biological family.

And while I understand that priority is not the same for everyone in my spiritual community, I always have a moment of disorientation when someone chooses another activity over spiritual practice. I have to remind myself that my priorities are not necessarily their priorities. I imagine others have the same experience with me since exercise is low on my priority list.

Not only do I have to ask myself how important something is to me, I need to remember to ask others how important a certain thing is to them. Because they may not want it as much as I do, and expecting them to is setting us both up for disappointment.

And asking myself how important something is helps remind me to not expect too much of myself, and not over-commit myself. In this way I avoid overwhelm, or disappointment about not being able to do everything I want to do. Well, sort of. I still get disappointed that I can’t do it all, however, I have more realistic expectations about what I am willing to sacrifice, and what I am NOT willing to sacrifice.

So, how important is it to you?

Blessings,

Mary

 

Time to level up?

The world is a crazy place. And chaotic. It’s a crazy, chaotic place, and lately, it seems to be worse than ever.

level upPolitics, especially in the United States, are out of control. I’m not even going to go into that craziness.

Mother Nature is busy working on a wake up call, with record wild fires, hurricanes and earthquakes.

We’ve just come through the energy of a complete solar eclipse and Mercury Retrograde, both of which are fairly common events, and yet they have an energetic impact on us.

And I, for one, have been feeling the effects.

I’ve been experiencing some nausea, and weird digestion. That pales compared to the headaches, though. I wake up at 2 or 3 am in pain that I cannot find release from. Painkillers don’t touch it. I have a few stretches that help, however, then I’m awake, which leads to sleep deprivation, which leads to more pain…

And I’ve had a lot of injuries. Kind of like when I was growing, and I was awkward because I wasn’t used to the new dimensions of my body.

I’ve been feeling more anxiety lately. When I first felt anxiety, it was due to a toxic relationship at work. When that resolved, the anxiety went away. And now it’s back. Fairly mild, but still there.

I feel like I’m falling behind, and I can’t catch up. Actually, it feels like I’m playing a video game, and I’m fighting the boss. I’m not sure I’m up to this challenge. And I’ve got to keep at it because I don’t want to have to start over.

I want to level up. I want the world to level up. I want us to have learned from past mistakes, and be better and stronger than the negative in the world. And I want to feel less pain.

So I will keep working on raising my vibration. Because the more I hold my vibration high, the more others can do the same.

Blessings,

Mary

 

Sugar Free September

It’s been 8 months since I completed my Whole30. And I’ve definitely slipped. The sugar dragon has me firmly in its teeth.

no-sugar-woodenI’ve mostly kept wheat out of my diet, except for earlier this summer when we had a lot of visitors, and sandwiches were just easy. And sugar. Sugar was easy; pop, frappes, chocolate, peanut butter. Easy at hand, and it tasted so good…

And once I started, I just couldn’t stop. A little here, and a little there. Which led to a lot here, and even more there. And I realized that I had a problem, and I still couldn’t stop myself.

I was gaining back the weight that I lost in January and February. And then exhaustion hit me like a brick wall. No motivation, wanting to sleep all the time. One day I even was so tired I felt ill.

Anxiety rode quick on the heels of the tired. Overwhelm was also on the horizon (yes, I know, I do a lot, and expect a lot of myself). These are all of the things that led me to try the Whole30 in the first place.

I’m not quite ready to do another Whole30. That takes some preparation – both shopping wise and mentally. And mentally, I’m not prepared to give all of that up again, at least not the rice and beans. Because I know sugar is my kryptonite.

So I’m giving up sugar for September. Again, not quite as strict as during the Whole30. I’m not bothering about the small amounts of sugar in things like salad dressings, or sauces (except chocolate sauce, or caramel sauce, or the like). However, no more lattes, or candy, or sugary drinks.

Hopefully cutting out sugar helps reset my body’s energy. If this doesn’t work, then I have to check my thyroid levels. 🙁

Wish me luck!

Blessings,

Mary

I Don’t Know My Own Strength

I’ve received quite a few compliments recently, and while I appreciate them, I’m not quite sure how I earned them.

I’m a person, just like everyone else. I do my best to treat others with kindness and respect. I work to live my life by my values. I learn. I grow. And I share what I’ve learned with others.

I do all of this to raise my vibration. And if I can raise my vibration, and hold it high, then I can help others raise their vibrations as well. That’s not too much to ask, is it?

Apparently, I make a bigger impression on people than I realize.

People that I have passing, though perhaps regular, acquaintanceship with, say that I’m “good people”, “amazing”, “wonderful”. I feel like I’m bragging now, and I really don’t mean to. I kind of think I ought to just stop writing now, and come up with a new topic.

And, I’ve come this far. I’m uncomfortable. To me, I’m just me. I’m not spectacular, or amazing, or special. I don’t have any super powers. I’m definitely not perfect, and I certainly don’t know everything. I’m not trying to impress anyone.

I’m honestly baffled at how I affect others. I mean, I’m glad I affect (most) people positively. And I guess I’m glad it is relatively effortless, in that it’s not something I think about doing, because then it would come off as trying too hard, and now I’m rambling.

Let me be 100% clear: I’m NOT fishing for more compliments. This is not about stroking my ego (I’d really like to keep that in check). This is me musing to make sense of my experiences.

If I have made a positive impact in your life, I am grateful. It is enough for me. I’m going to keep doing my work, the work I need to do to keep growing. And if you would like to join me, I’d love the company.

Blessings,

Mary

Thoughts on the Eclipse

I’ve been contemplating different things to write about this week. There are a few things going on in my life that I’ve thought to share with you. And yet, the eclipse is so timely.

I went out this morning and sat in my yard with the sun shining on me. We had light cloud cover. I meditated about connecting with the earth and sun and moon, and the intention I have for this eclipse.

Homemade Eclipse ViewerI felt the moment the eclipse began. Well, I felt a shift, around the time the eclipse began. I asked the Dark Mother Goddess, (Kali, Ereshkigal, Hekate, Morrigan, the “mean” mom) to take away the negativity and fear and hate and greed. I asked Her to take into herself anything that does not serve the highest good of humanity and our beloved planet Earth, and transform it.

I took turns with my husband and our boys looking through our homemade pinhole viewer, and watching the image created from a hole punched in a piece of cardboard projected onto a piece of paper. Because of the light cloud, we weren’t able to get any crisp images.

A wonderful neighbor came by with a pair of eclipse glasses, and allowed us to have a look through them. The eclipse was only about 30% by that point. Still, it was fascinating to see the clear image of the orange crescent sun. It was even more fun to see the look on my youngest son’s face when he took his turn looking through the glasses.

Crescents from the eclipseWe looked at the crescents that were made on our van by the light coming through the leaves. We listened as the crickets increased their chorus. We watched the quality of the light change to a strange combination of overcast day and twilight. We felt the temperature drop.

As the eclipse reached it’s maximum (I don’t live in the path of totality, so our maximum was about 86%), I imagined the union of the God and Goddess, the Sun and the Moon, giving birth to a new reality of love and joy and compassion and understanding and appreciation – appreciation of the diversity of our experiences as humans and appreciation of out Mother Earth. I held the vision of increased vibration, increased trust, and increased awareness of the effects of our choices.

We came inside and witnessed the diamond ring of totality flare on the computer screen from somewhere in Oregon, sealing this intention for a new reality. May we all work together to bring this vision to fruition.

Blessings,

Mary

PS. Do I think the eclipse was a magic pill that will allow us to suddenly wake up in an alternate reality? No. And, it is a catalyzing moment. It will take a lot of work to make this vision a reality. I hope you’ll join me in my commitment to making it happen.