I’m a little at a loss. For several years now, I’ve had a particular Goddess that I’ve worked with quite closely in preparation for one festival or another. Athena, Ereshkigal, Aphrodite, Demeter, Hekate, Persephone. It’s been an intense few years!
While I’m still going to be involved in the upcoming festivals, I don’t have any particular deity that I am working with for the first time in years. Years. This is weird for me.
I’m free to focus on any Goddess I choose. Except I am not sure which one I want to work with next. Part of me feels like I ought to focus on one, choose a patron, build a relationship and become an expert. And part of me feels like I ought to move on, and learn about as many different Goddesses as I can.
I have friends who are dedicated to the service of one deity. They do regular rituals, make offerings, study all there is to learn, and immerse themselves in the myths and teachings of that one God or Goddess. I want to do that – devote myself to learning all I can, connect deeply with Goddess.
I also want to learn all I can, not just about one Deity. The more I can learn about all of them, the more I can understand the wholeness of the Universe.
The truth is, though, neither of these are my path, at least not right now. I have other responsibilities that are higher priority – family, work, teaching. I could despair, and think that I am not as good as others because I cannot make the same commitments.
Instead of giving up, I remind myself that my path is my own. My devotion is not less because my offerings are different. We each have our own calling, our own way of serving, and one is not better than another.
How are you called to serve?