Monthly Archives: September 2017

How important is it?

The autumn equinox has just passed, and so balance is on my mind. Day and night were in equal balance for just a moment, and now we tip into the dark time of the year, the Underworld.

Equinox by Molly Costello

Equinox by Molly Costello http://www.mollycostello.com

Actually, balance has been on my mind for a while now. A couple of weeks ago, at our Full Moon ritual, we used my Balance Guided Meditation to reassess the priorities in our lives.

And I’ve had a few conversations with friends recently about how to balance all the parts of our lives. We all seem to be so busy! Working more than one job, doing things on the side to make ends meet, going to classes (or teaching them) in the evenings, making time for family… Where’s the me time? What about exploring things just because we WANT to? Or the things that support our overall well-being?

The question that keeps coming up for me is how important is it? (And then the refrain from Walk Off the Earth’s song These Times: “I just don’t want it, I just don’t want it enough I guess”, which is totally me when it comes to exercise… I want to, but I don’t want it enough.)

For me, my spirituality and spiritual practice is vital. Being a priestess is an essential part of who I am and what I do. I can’t turn that part of myself off. I am sad and disappointed when I have to miss rituals or festivals. My spiritual family is as important to me as my biological family.

And while I understand that priority is not the same for everyone in my spiritual community, I always have a moment of disorientation when someone chooses another activity over spiritual practice. I have to remind myself that my priorities are not necessarily their priorities. I imagine others have the same experience with me since exercise is low on my priority list.

Not only do I have to ask myself how important something is to me, I need to remember to ask others how important a certain thing is to them. Because they may not want it as much as I do, and expecting them to is setting us both up for disappointment.

And asking myself how important something is helps remind me to not expect too much of myself, and not over-commit myself. In this way I avoid overwhelm, or disappointment about not being able to do everything I want to do. Well, sort of. I still get disappointed that I can’t do it all, however, I have more realistic expectations about what I am willing to sacrifice, and what I am NOT willing to sacrifice.

So, how important is it to you?

Blessings,

Mary

 

Time to level up?

The world is a crazy place. And chaotic. It’s a crazy, chaotic place, and lately, it seems to be worse than ever.

level upPolitics, especially in the United States, are out of control. I’m not even going to go into that craziness.

Mother Nature is busy working on a wake up call, with record wild fires, hurricanes and earthquakes.

We’ve just come through the energy of a complete solar eclipse and Mercury Retrograde, both of which are fairly common events, and yet they have an energetic impact on us.

And I, for one, have been feeling the effects.

I’ve been experiencing some nausea, and weird digestion. That pales compared to the headaches, though. I wake up at 2 or 3 am in pain that I cannot find release from. Painkillers don’t touch it. I have a few stretches that help, however, then I’m awake, which leads to sleep deprivation, which leads to more pain…

And I’ve had a lot of injuries. Kind of like when I was growing, and I was awkward because I wasn’t used to the new dimensions of my body.

I’ve been feeling more anxiety lately. When I first felt anxiety, it was due to a toxic relationship at work. When that resolved, the anxiety went away. And now it’s back. Fairly mild, but still there.

I feel like I’m falling behind, and I can’t catch up. Actually, it feels like I’m playing a video game, and I’m fighting the boss. I’m not sure I’m up to this challenge. And I’ve got to keep at it because I don’t want to have to start over.

I want to level up. I want the world to level up. I want us to have learned from past mistakes, and be better and stronger than the negative in the world. And I want to feel less pain.

So I will keep working on raising my vibration. Because the more I hold my vibration high, the more others can do the same.

Blessings,

Mary

 

Sugar Free September

It’s been 8 months since I completed my Whole30. And I’ve definitely slipped. The sugar dragon has me firmly in its teeth.

no-sugar-woodenI’ve mostly kept wheat out of my diet, except for earlier this summer when we had a lot of visitors, and sandwiches were just easy. And sugar. Sugar was easy; pop, frappes, chocolate, peanut butter. Easy at hand, and it tasted so good…

And once I started, I just couldn’t stop. A little here, and a little there. Which led to a lot here, and even more there. And I realized that I had a problem, and I still couldn’t stop myself.

I was gaining back the weight that I lost in January and February. And then exhaustion hit me like a brick wall. No motivation, wanting to sleep all the time. One day I even was so tired I felt ill.

Anxiety rode quick on the heels of the tired. Overwhelm was also on the horizon (yes, I know, I do a lot, and expect a lot of myself). These are all of the things that led me to try the Whole30 in the first place.

I’m not quite ready to do another Whole30. That takes some preparation – both shopping wise and mentally. And mentally, I’m not prepared to give all of that up again, at least not the rice and beans. Because I know sugar is my kryptonite.

So I’m giving up sugar for September. Again, not quite as strict as during the Whole30. I’m not bothering about the small amounts of sugar in things like salad dressings, or sauces (except chocolate sauce, or caramel sauce, or the like). However, no more lattes, or candy, or sugary drinks.

Hopefully cutting out sugar helps reset my body’s energy. If this doesn’t work, then I have to check my thyroid levels. 🙁

Wish me luck!

Blessings,

Mary