I Don’t Want to Jinx It…

I don’t want to jinx myself. I’m a little nervous even bringing it up. I think I just might be beginning to feel better.

fingers crossed

I even sang “Laundry Day” to myself while doing laundry yesterday!

I’ve had an upsurge in energy. I went for walks twice this week. It would have been more if it weren’t so stormy. I haven’t wanted to exercise in weeks.

I’ve worked on sewing projects. I’ve actually completed one, and made progress on another one that has been on my agenda since the end of January.

I’m getting energy back. For the first time in ages I’m starting to make plans for farther ahead than my next medical appointment.

My meditation practice has been more on than off. And trust me, it was off for longer than I would like.

I don’t know if it is the combination of supplements that I have been taking, or the amazing acupuncture treatment that I had that released a ton of stuck energy, or that it is spring, or that I have simply finally had enough time for things to shift.

I’m ready for a shift. I’ve been in limbo for months. No, that’s not right. I’ve been in limbo and just getting by for more than a year. The last few months I’ve really been working on surrendering and not having any attachments to any particular outcome. Every time I’ve thought that I knew what was going on or what was going to happen, something changed, and I was back to uncertainty.

I feel like I’m starting to get my power back. By power I mean personal power, self confidence. It’s still a bit tenuous, and needs some care and protection. I’m not quite ready to take on the whole world. Yet. Baby steps.

I’m continuing to trust in the Universe, trust that the Universe is supporting me. And trust that this upward swing is going to continue. Fingers crossed.



One Response

  1. I understand this feeling. Ive felt lately my personal power has been drained slightly. So i did a soul retrieval meditation, that was pretty powerful. Yes the woman in it warned of nausea as a side effect afterwards. However besides that i feel a lil more like myself. I,feel i can trust the universe a lil more, i can let go of things that no longer serve me, i can cut ties to things that arent in my highest good, and im ready to move on. Yes i feel like ive been through a meat,grinder emotionally and physically speaking, yet my heart feels a lil fuller, i know these side,effects will subside and i feel i love myself just a lil more. Like part of me has returned, so im grateful for that. Heres to no jinxes.:)