Shattered

That’s it. It’s over. There will never be another 30th anniversary of the Spring Mysteries Festival. And I’m broken-hearted. The long road to Eleusis comes to journey’s end. At least for this year.

The world breaks everone, and afterward, some are strong at the broken places. -Ernest HemingwayI’m sad that it’s over. I’m sad that I have to leave my spiritual family and come back to my other life. I’m sad that people I love and respect were not able to be there.

I’m shattered to “regular” theatre. Ritual drama is incredibly intense, emotional, and change-provoking. “Regular” theatre can be all of those things, too, of course. And yet to marry that with a spiritual experience…

I thought for a bit that maybe I was doing something wrong. People kept asking me, “How are you doing?” in that are-you-really-ok-I’m-afraid-you-might-burst-into-tears kind of way. Some people experience Demeter’s Mysteries in a very challenging way.

I felt really good, though. I allowed the energy to move through me. I could tell it was affecting others strongly, and I received many such comments. And yet, in spite of a couple of hiccups, we ended on a high note. Demeter was happy at the end of the ritual.

I was asked if I would participate as a ritual presenter again. Absolutely! I’m hooked! It was extremely fulfilling to be the vessel of the Goddess in this way.

I have had the blessing of learning lessons of grief, depression, anger, joy, love and change. It was an exhausting week, in a very positive way. I stayed up way too late to spend time and share stories and laughs with people I love. I moved a lot of energy and emotion. I released a ton of sh!t. And I did good work.

I look forward to doing it again next year. I hope you will join me!

Blessings,

Mary

2 Responses

  1. I too am grieving that it is over. I only had a tiny part a shrine attendant, but I worked hard for 4 months getting my name changed, new I’d my passport and learning all about the god form I was helping. At the mysteries you being mother Demeter affected me so deeply, as I am.energetically connected to u your my HP’s my friend and u and Persephone this year helped me release a ton of sh$t! Stuff I didn’t realize needed to be let out. I was utterly a mess only after the first part of leaders part one and literally needed a 3rd degree to sit with me after wards that’s just how powerful u were! I’m still grieving the loss of my old self/ life and that its over that as u said there will never be another 30th anniversary SMF. I miss my friends from there and my loves and I’m not sure what to do now, all I know is this was my 6 the year and it kicked my ass hard, I put in my all and it was worth it, and while it was the most powerful yet, I have u to thank for it- io Demeter and her daughter Persephone!

  2. I’m so glad that I could be part of your healing and transformation. <3