Monthly Archives: June 2014

Learning to Trust

Not long ago, I would have said I am pretty trusting. I tend to take people at face value, until and unless they prove me wrong.

Learning to TrustIn one of my classes, we were given an assignment to visualize how different our lives would be if we had complete trust in the Universe. Let’s just say that visualization painted a vastly different picture of life than the one I am currently living.

As I meditated on the idea of living in perfect love and perfect trust, I came to the realization that I try too hard to control situations and outcomes. I have a strong need for security, and that comes out as controlling, plotting and planning. And worrying. Lots of worrying.

Then Goddess reminded me that She’s got it covered. My job is to ask and visualize the result. It is not my job to figure out the how. My job is to trust Deity and take the inspired actions that come from listening with trust. It is not my job to plan out all the minute details and possible outcomes.

It was a lot easier to come to the realization than it was to implement. Just meditating on it in the morning wasn’t enough. I wrote the word “Trust” on the inside of my left wrist so I could see it throughout the day and be reminded of what Goddess had told me. I renew the ink regularly.

That one small reminder has made a big difference. There is a lot of stress and change at work right now. It’s one place where I have been expending a ton of energy worrying and planning (trying to control the outcome). Now I actually catch myself in the worry, and I let it go right there. I remind myself that Goddess has my back, and I ask that everything work out in my highest good and in the highest good of all.

Nothing has actually changed at work. It is still stressful, and I still find myself getting frustrated at times. But my reaction to it has changed. I remember to trust in Deity, and that’s a whole lot less draining.

Don’t get me wrong. It’s still a work in progress. I think that writing is going to be on my wrist for a while. And progress is still amazing!

Do you trust the Universe – the Divine? How do you stay on track?



When the Universe Tells You to Slow Down…

The last few weeks have been extremely busy and stressful for me. What am I talking about? Heck, the last few *months* have been busy and stressful. But the last few weeks I have been going 7 days a week – work Tuesday through Saturday, Farmer’s Market on Sundays, coaching on Mondays, and classes Monday through Friday after work. Add to that being part of the bargaining committee for the Union contract at work, and that May and June are some of the busiest months at the theatre, and my stress levels were pretty high up there.

Being forced to slow down is the same as being handed an invitation to slow down.Well, the Universe told me it was time to slow down. A week ago Saturday, as I was leaving work on our last super busy weekend, I fell on the stairs and twisted my ankle. I was already feeling rushed and extra frustrated because I was supposed to lead ritual at 7:30 pm. Originally I had been scheduled to be off at 5 pm, and then at the last minute my schedule was changed to work until 7 pm. It was 7:15 already, and I was finally leaving, and I slipped off the bottom step and went down.

My husband came to get me, and I was sitting on the steps with ice on my ankle in a fair amount of pain while we filled out an incident report. So instead of going out to lead ritual, I went to the emergency room to make sure my ankle wasn’t broken. Originally I thought I would still be able to go to the Farmer’s Market the next morning, but decided to listen to the Universe’s urging to slow down, and I stayed home.

As if the sore ankle wasn’t enough, mid-week I succumbed to the virus that my husband and son had the week before. I stayed home in bed on Wednesday. Thankfully I had no classes this week, though I did take part in one of the rituals online, and I had a birthday party for my middle son. So it was still a pretty busy week.

Today is thankfully a pretty quiet day. I was able to sleep in, and I don’t have plans to go anywhere today. I’m staying home, snuggled in my bed reading, and resting, and probably doing a little bit of homework. I’m listening to the Universe, though, and working on taking care of me. Because when the Universe tells you to slow down, you better listen! I don’t need any harder lessons, thanks!

I am really looking forward to having some time off work. It is coming right on time.

Have you been invited to slow down lately? In what ways?



The Down Side of Detox

Food CartoonMany health sites tout the benefits of detoxing your body. Increased energy, weight loss, improved immune function, among others.

The past week and a bit, I’ve had the pleasure of experiencing some of the down side of detoxing. If you are considering taking on a detox, here are some of the not-so-pleasant side effects:

  1. Acne breakout. Your skin is the largest organ in your body. Aside from it’s main function of protecting your insides, it is also part of your body’s elimination system. So my skin is helping eliminate excess toxins…through my face.
  2. Eczema flare-up. For the same reasons as above, only this time, it’s my hands.
  3. Increased body odor. Also the same reasons as #1. I have a pet peeve about body odor, though. Especially mine. I don’t like it. So it’s been extra fun times for me this week.
  4. Increased inflammation. It’s wonderful that my body is releasing some of the bad stuff it has been holding on to for who knows how long. As it works it’s way out, though, it is causing more irritation temporarily.
  5. Irritability. Though this could also be caused by Mercury Retrograde, a full moon, or higher sun flare activity, the irritation caused by elimination affects the mind as well as the body. It just doesn’t make any of those other things any easier.

So what can you do to ease these conditions? Winston Churchill has some good advice for this:

When you’re going through hell, keep going.

There’s really no point in turning back. I don’t want to stay sick and tired. I am committed to feeling healthier. Here’s what I’m doing to assist my body in flushing out the build up:

  1. Drink lots of water. Water is one of the best cleansers, inside and out. The water will help your body eliminate the toxins faster, both through urine and sweat.
  2. Eat healthy foods. I’m “grazing” my way through the day with my raw breakfast and green smoothies. I haven’t really changed what I eat for dinner, and I still have some sweet treats. The bulk of my daily intake now is veggies though, so I’m making sure my body is getting plenty of nutrients. I’m also doing my best to avoid adding more crap in through my diet.
  3. Exercise. I’m going for more walks. (Well, I was before I twisted my ankle Saturday evening.) Exercise gets your body’s systems moving and helps increase your metabolism, which also helps release the junk.

Pretty simple. I’m pretty sure the worst of it is over. And I *have* been seeing some of the benefits as well. Now I just need to heal my latest injury…

Here’s to being healthier!



On the Road to Health(ier)

Quite often, I take my health for granted. Sure, I deal with pain on a fairly regular basis. Some days are worse than others. And for the most part, I’m able to live my life and do the things that I want to do. I rarely let pain stop me.

green smoothieI don’t often get sick. At least, I would have said that a year ago. Since a gallbladder attack took me to the emergency room last fall, suddenly I’ve been giving a lot more attention to my health! (I’m being very intentional with my language here: I’m not claiming the gallbladder attack as “mine”, and I am giving attention rather than paying attention.)

After the attack, I was told that I would need surgery to have my gallbladder removed. That just didn’t sit right with me. I did some research, and got a second opinion. I’ve been seeing an ND, a Naturopath. We found several other issues we’ve been addressing, which affirmed for me that the gallbladder issue wasn’t the core of the problem.

We’ve addressed thyroid challenges, and low iron. Each time we find something, and improve on it, my energy improves. For a while. Then it dips again. I’m just starting to come out of another such dip.

What does that look like? Well, for me, it means having a hard time getting out of bed in the morning. More than just a “five more minutes, please” kind of hard time. It’s full on conversations in my head about how it’s time to get up. Now. Move body. No, really. Move. Get up. Get up. GET UP!

It’s wanting to take a nap. Frequently. 10 am and 2 pm would be a good start. And 5 pm. Do I have to get up?

It’s falling asleep during my meditation. Every. Day.

It’s wanting to exercise, knowing that exercise is necessary and helpful, and I actually enjoy doing yoga, and not being able to actually move my body to do it. The extra hour of sleep is vitally more important than the yoga. Or even a walk. Mostly because I can’t nap.

It’s being in more pain than is usual. My body aches. It hurts to stay in bed, and it hurts to get up and move.

It’s falling back on caffeine and sugar to get me through the day.

None of this is what I would consider “normal” for me. When I’m feeling good, I have energy. I wake up before my alarm goes off. I don’t really have a problem getting out of bed. (Maybe one snooze.) I am able to meditate without falling asleep. I have a lull in energy mid-afternoon, maybe, and I get through it pretty easily. My pain levels are manageable.

I’m working on reducing my stress levels, both mentally and physically. I started making green smoothies for my lunch at work, and I have to say I’ve definitely had more energy this week. My pain levels are going down. I know I’m getting WAY more vegetable servings than I normally would. Along with following the recommendations of my ND, I feel that I am on the road to becoming healthier once again. And I love that it is not due to pharmaceuticals. (Oh, and my kids like it, too! Who knew?)

What are some of the things that you do to maintain your health?



Getting Crunchier All the Time

I don’t consider myself a health nut. I don’t exercise religiously (or even regularly, if I’m being honest). I’m a sugar addict. I enjoy chocolate. A lot. I don’t get enough sleep. I push myself pretty hard to achieve.

I’ve written about being a little bit crunchy – not quite a hippy environmentalist, though I have my moments. I think I’ve gotten a little crunchier lately.

I do my best to be aware of my health, and what I put into, and onto, my body. And when something enters my consciousness repeatedly, I give it my attention.

Oil Pulling

Not the best selfie ever…

The latest thing that has surfaced several times is oil pulling. It’s an Ayurvedic method of cleaning your teeth, and it’s supposed to have some pretty amazing secondary benefits, from whiter teeth to improved heart health.

I first read about it a year ago, and I thought it sounded interesting. I wasn’t sure I could handle swishing oil in my mouth for 20 minutes every day, though. Several of my friends have done it in the past, and a few swear by it. Another friend just started doing it, so I thought I would give it a try.

After about 2 weeks, I’ve noticed that my mouth is definitely clean. I think my teeth are whiter – I didn’t take “before” pictures to compare. My allergies have dramatically decreased. I was at the “I’m ready to stab my eyes with a fork because the itching is driving me crazy” stage before I started. Right away, the itchy eyes disappeared. They are starting to come back a bit, but nowhere near the levels they had been. I’m getting used to the taste, and 20 minutes doesn’t seem quite as long as it used to.

The other thing I’m trying is oil cleansing. When I was looking (again) for the information on oil pulling, I also read about oil cleansing. Since I have the Costco size jar of coconut oil, I thought, “what the heck!” I mixed up some coconut oil and olive oil and gave it a try.

After about a week and a half, I haven’t noticed a huge difference. I didn’t get any major breakouts when I started. I also haven’t been completely acne-free. To be fair, it’s only been a week and a half! I haven’t used a chemical moisturizer at all during this time, and my face is super soft. It removes makeup really well. Now, if only I could figure out how to get my eyelids to stop overproducing oil…

I’m going to give it an honest shot – at least a month. It will be interesting to see if my dentist notices any difference in a few weeks. (I’m still brushing before bed. I’ve always been horrible about flossing, though.)

Next challenge: green smoothies. Am I up for this? I have to get myself a blender…