It’s the beginning of September, and I am really no closer to having a completed course to share with you than I was at the beginning of August. I have a great idea, or at least what I think is a great idea, and I have yet to flesh it out and give it substance.
I’ve been allowing myself to be distracted by other things – anything, really – that are keeping me from creating content for you. I’ve told myself that these things are important, and they truly are. Yet I am letting my blog writing and video recording and editing, and updating my website, and evaluating a training opportunity to keep me from my course.
So this morning I had to ask myself, what’s going on here? I know how to accomplish what I want, I understand what I need to do, and I am very aware of time passing. What’s up?
Doubt. I’m doubting that I have something to say that you will find valuable. I’m doubting that I can turn everything I have learned into a course that makes sense. I’m doubting that I have what it takes to help you transform your life.
There. I said it.
All this doubt really comes down to a fear of failure. I am afraid to put myself, my reputation, my word and my integrity on the line in case I fail to live up to my word, my reputation and my integrity. Keeping my word is extremely important to me. If I say I’m going to do something, it is a matter of honor that I follow through and keep my commitment.
And yet I’ve given my word to create this course.
I’ve heard that when you are faced with fear, and it is not something actually life threatening, then it means you are on the right track. If that is the case, then it means I am on the right track by creating this course.
I’ve named my fear, I’ve acknowledged it. Now it is time to face it. Feel the fear and do it anyway.
Here is my commitment: I commit to writing down my initial idea for the Elements of Abundance course and working through the concept worksheet given to me by my mentor in the next two weeks.
Now my reputation and my integrity is REALLY on the line! 🙂 However, I have written it down now, and words have power. I’m using the written word to keep me accountable. And I’m feeling my doubts and fears fade even as I make this commitment.
How do you handle moments of doubt? I’d love to hear from you in the comments below.
yeah i’ve been feeling some fear myself too lately. i feel i am in uncharted territory, but really it isn’t, it only is because i have changed, and am looking at things differently now, and i realize my fear is also fear of failure. fear of failing at writing because someone said i was’nt good at it a long time ago and labeled me from their perspective, fear of not finding love, fear of finding it and ruining it by running away or messing it up, because i fear my feelings cause i feel things in all areas of my life intensly. however i keep working with my chakras, and re-affirming myself, that i trust me first, and i got this, no matter how scary it may seem. if i just keep moving with this flow of constant flux of feeling broken, and not broken and yet merging, rearranging and combining and recombining these puzzle pieces of ordered chaos, i will continue to grow and my light will shine even bigger and brighter, and ultimately to not fear my greatest self, for as marianne williamson said- who am i not to be fabulous and great! so i wish u luck on your course, i know you can do it, and u do have something to teach others because u have taught me so much, how else can i be as fantabulous as i am, without having had your love and guidance haha. so you go girl, and together may we both find and obtain all we desire, and leave the itty bitty shitty commitee of fear behind, with mmmm that’s nice, thanks for sharing, but i’m gonna do this anyways:)
I so appreciate your encouragement, Phoenix. Thank you!