Do You Sabotage Your Success?

This post marks 25 out of my 30 blog posts in 60 days. As of right now, I’ve published 19 out of 30 videos, and there are still 10 days left in the month. I had a pretty good momentum going, up until a few days ago. I just about sabotaged my own success.

I recognize all the symptoms. I’ve seen them before. I can see the finish line. It’s not really that far ahead. But the last stretch is often the hardest, and the temptation to give up is strong. Since I can see the finish line, my mind starts telling me that I don’t HAVE to finish, because I know I COULD finish. Just knowing I COULD do it is enough, right?

Regret Giving UpWRONG!

Those who succeed go all the way through the finish line. They don’t give up right before the end.

This feeling often comes up for me when life gets a little challenging, and its not necessarily easy to keep my commitment. It’s hard, or overwhelming, so part of me wants to give up. One of the most memorable incidents for me was my last semester of University. I was taking three of the most difficult and work intensive classes of my degree all at the same time so I wouldn’t have to stay an extra year in school. I was also getting married and planning to move to a different country. I wanted to go hide in a hole, to become a hermit, to run off with my fiancee and not look back. I had made it this far, I had done really well in school, and I knew I had what it took to graduate with my degree. I didn’t really need to torture myself by doing all this work, did I?

Of course I did. Because if I had quit that close to the end, I would never have forgiven myself. And I’m feeling a bit like that now. I’m stressed, I’m a bit overwhelmed, and the thought of writing 5 more posts and creating 10 more videos in the next 10 days is a little daunting. And there’s not even a prize or certificate at the end! So why am I doing this again?

Because I made a commitment. I said I would do it. I took up the challenge. And I would regret it if I gave up now, this close to the end. I would be sending a message to myself and to the Universe that I do not keep my word. And that is something that is VERY important to me. So I’m sticking it out, I’m going the distance. It may not be easy, but I am going to go THROUGH the finish line. I refuse to sabotage my success by quitting.

What are you working on right now that is not coming easy for you? What are you considering giving up on? Take my hand, and let’s go through the finish line together.



2 Responses

  1. yay! way to go mary, you can do it! i understand where u are coming from. i recently just got involved in a new realtionship, and so my life is speeding up tremendously. while i am in the honey moon phase, it can be so tempting to want to shirk off responsibilites, however, like you said i know if i did i would not forgive myself. i chose to do this semester in school, i have the responsibilty to work on the course load to keep my financial funding, in order to ensure my future schooling, and career goals, and that must come first. while yes my new boyfriend is only in the immediate area for a few weeks before he has to go back to work, i have learned, i must PRIORITIZE.( hey maybe that can be a video topic for you, your pretty good at that lol). anyways school is important, building my realtionship is, nuturing existing ones, like my familiar, and friends and family, studying and working on my priestess studies, all of it, i chose to do, and experience, and so i must take responsibility for my own sucess, for without it i know my happiness would dwindle, and who wants that, not i, that’s for sure. so while it is hectic, and busy and sometimes stressful, i am also realizing i am thriving in this situation, because i am learning how to juggle my time, and how to focus fully on each thing with full passion, and honestly that is a great feeling, to know i am giving my all in all areas of my life. besides it is when we feel pressure, that in times of “stress” how we choose to react to it, our perspective. it can be a “good stress” that though we feel overwhelmed, and somewhat fearful, it is a sign we are close, and on the right track, you taught me, and ultimately it is when you keeping moving forward in ACTION, the fear subsides, and u feel that sense of accomplishment and empowerment, like yay i did it, and pat yourself on the back for being a strong enlightened and peaceful woman in times of hectic whirlwinds of energy around you:) and you thought u had nothing to teach in a course, well i am living proof you do, and i honor you, your friendship, your path and all u have done to help me, cause goddess knows i could be in a very different place right now, if you had’nt stumbled into my life. so here’s congrats to u, and continuing on, you with your posts, and me- time management lol.:)

  2. Thanks for the idea! And thank you for the encouragement as well. I really appreciate it.