Did You Ever Have That Nightmare…

I don't know what to say…where you’re standing in front of a group of people, and you can’t remember what you’re supposed to say? And you can’t think of anything to say beyond, “Umm, hi.”

I know the blog posts have been coming out faithfully every other day for the past two weeks, but I haven’t actually written one for almost a week. I’ve been sitting here staring at my computer for at least 15 minutes.

I’m terrified that I have run out of things to say. I was on a streak for a while, and then, nothing. Well, not nothing, exactly. I wrote an Introduction to Meditation course for Wiccan Seminary. I’ve recorded some more videos and gotten them ready to publish online. And now the inspiration seems to have dried up.

I want to slack off. I want to watch movies, and read books, and sleep in. Sometimes I wish I didn’t know the things I know. Sometimes I’d like to be like the “average” North American – go to work, come home, watch tv, go to sleep, lather, rinse, repeat. But a mind once expanded can never go back to its previous shape. I can never un-know the things that I know.

Part of this blog challenge is about finding my voice, and uncovering my message. I thought I knew what my voice sounded like, though I haven’t been quite as clear what my message is. It’s pretty hard to share my message with you if I’m not clear what it is.

If I’m going to claim the title, The Prosperity Priestess, my message is about abundance and spirituality. This feels in alignment for me.

I love seeing people find their connection to Source – in whatever form they connect, whether it is through Paganism, Christianity, Hinduism, or any other faith. I think we all have a right to be happy. We all deserve to live lives of abundance and joy and love. I’ve been working to increase the joy, love and abundance in my life, and I want that for others as well.

I won’t lie to you and say its easy. I’ve spent a lot of time, and to be honest, a lot of money, to learn and grow. And I would like to save others some of the time and money I’ve spent to see the abundance that I am enjoying. I may not be the richest person in the world, but I enjoy a lot of abundance in my life.

Huh, I guess I had something to say after all.

Blessings,

Mary

2 Responses

  1. see my nightmares lately have been different. of my ex bf coming back and mind manipulating me and taking away things that are important to me, cause that is what he did to try and control me. or for some reason the goverment makes an error and what if i did’nt recieve funds again, like in may? i realize i value my freedom through these fears, as i am a free spirit, and i will not allow a lover into my life if it means changing who i am, i love my freedom to be, say, do what ever i please, and i like to also have that abundance of freedom when it comes to money. so perhaps i need advice from the prosperity priestess, what are your thoughts on overcoming fear of loss of freedom? to me that is abundance in the purest form, and i am not sure why now i am getting tripped up on this, when for so long i have been managing quite well, unless you count those pomengrante seeds the trigger into balancing the light and dark within myself lol… what do you think prosperity priestess:)?

  2. I think you need to redefine freedom. You have an abundance of freedom in your life. You say you don’t want a lover in your life if it means changing who you are, but you are always changing! You are definitely NOT the same person I met several years ago. You’re not even the same person you were last year. Having or not having a lover is not going to stop you changing.

    With regards to money, recognize that you always have the freedom to choose how you spend your money, whether there is a lot of it, or just a little. The power of choice is a form of abundance in itself, regardless of the amount of money.