Monthly Archives: September 2009

Fun With Grief?

Easter weekend 2008 I had the pleasure to return once again to the Spring Mysteries Festival that the Aquarian Tabernacle Church has organized for the past 23 years. This was the third time I had gone, and each experience has been different, though the theme is always the same.

The ATC Spring Mysteries Festival is modeled on the Eleusinian Mysteries, initiation ceremonies held every year for the cult of Demeter and Persephone based at Eleusis in ancient Greece. I can’t tell you much more, because the Mysteries have to be experienced to be understood.

I wasn’t sure I was going to make it this year. It was very important to me that I go, as I had prearranged for my parents to look after my children so my husband and I could get the full experience. We were also to be initiated as clergy with the Aquarian Tabernacle Church of Canada. It was all set well before Christmas.

But three weeks before the event, I was challenged. Both of my grandmothers were quite ill—one needed heart surgery, and the other was slowly dying. My parents could not decide whether to stay in Minnesota and care for their mothers, or come to Vancouver Island to care for their grandchildren.

To make a long story short, they came, and I returned from the Mysteries sleep deprived but exhilarated!

One week later, my grandmother died. Upon hearing the news, my first feelings were of relief and happiness for her. I know that my grandmother is happier now—she is young again, and healthy, and reunited with her husband, son and many siblings that preceded her to the Creator’s arms. I am tinged with sadness, because I will miss her very much, but I do not really grieve.

I returned to Minnesota not only for her funeral, but also to care for my family. My husband and children remained in BC, so I was free to lend my hands wherever they were needed. I was also there as a shoulder to cry on. I know I shed my own tears when I was there, and I probably shed a few for those who are not able to express their grief. But I did so joyfully, in the knowledge that I am serving others.

One lesson I brought home from the Mysteries that I can share is that if you’re not having fun, why are you doing it? I don’t mean that we should stop working, or cleaning the house because these things are not fun. The lesson I learned is to have fun in whatever it is you are doing, even if it is cleaning someone else’s dishes! When you come from a place of love and service to others, even the most daunting tasks can be fun. And that includes grief.

The Butterfly Circus

I am on a whole bunch of different email lists for one thing and another, and I rarely find time to read all the emails.  I have the best intentions when I sign up, really I do.  Usually there is something I want to learn from the writer, or I like his or her style, or I resonate with the topic.  Many times I will read the first few diligently, but eventually, I end up trashing the messages unread.  I just don’t have the heart to unsubscribe, at least until my mailbox maxes out.

Well, I’m glad I read this one before I trashed it.  There was a link to this incredible video.  It’s 20 minutes long, which may as well be 4 hours for the short attention span on the internet, but it is undeniably worth the time.  See for yourself:

Blessings,
Mary

Blog look and feel

I’ve been stalling adding new posts, because I have been hung up on the details.  I wanted my blog to look exactly like the rest of my site, to be seamlessly integrated.

And because of that, I haven’t made any progress.  Until today.

I have it looking similar.  I’m not entirely happy with it (like the part of the logo that is covered up), AND  I am not letting that stop me any longer.  So if anyone reading this is skilled at creating or editing WordPress templates, I would gladly appreciate your suggestions or assistance.

Blessings,
Mary

Wealth and Spirituality are NOT Mutually Exclusive

This may not be headline news to some of you, and, superficially at least, it was not news to me. But it wasn’t until recently that I really understood and believed it.

I don’t remember ever hearing it outright, but somehow I learned that truly spiritual people did not need or want money. There are lots of clichés about money:

  • Money is the root of all evil.
  • It is better to give than to receive.
  • Neither a borrower nor a lender be.
  • Money doesn’t grow on trees.
  • You can’t take it with you.
  • Money isn’t everything.
  • Money can’t buy happiness.

Some of these have truth in them, and some are, unfortunately, mis-quotes. For example, I have learned from a number of different sources that the first two quotes should really read, “The love of money is the root of all evil,” and, “It is better to be in a position to give than in a position where you need to receive.” Taken together, the message I got was that money, or wealth, is bad.

It probably didn’t help that my family didn’t have a lot of money. My dad was always talking about this plan or that opportunity, but he never “made it” with any of them. Even now as I have been learning about wealth and success, my father will tell me about how he could have made a lot of money with this or that, except for the thing that held him back. There is always an excuse.

All through 2008, I was attending courses and listening to audios and reading books about how to become successful or how to become wealthy.  I learned a lot, but following in my father’s footsteps, I have a number of excuses and I have not applied what I have learned in my life.  As easy as it might be to blame my parents, I don’t.

The courses I went to were great at motivating me while I was there in the room and surrounded by others who were just as hyped up as I was.  Unfortunately, they didn’t offer an action plan to get me going or keep me motivated once I got home.  They also did a very good job at appealing to my logic, but failed to engage my spirit.  Once again, it sounds like I am blaming the courses for my lack of action, but please believe that I do not.  I take full responsibility for my procrastination!

One course I went to at the end of October 2008 was different from the others.  Instead of trying to teach methods of becoming wealthy, the point was to work on discovering the negative beliefs and conditioning we all have around money, and replace them with positive and supportive beliefs.  I was amazed at the energy level of the room, and astounded at the depth of the work accomplished in a huge room of 450 people.  The presenters managed to created and hold safe space for us to work in.  I uncovered many of my own limiting beliefs and patterns.

I finally understand and believe deep in my core that I am a child of the Divine.  Since the Divine Spirit created everything in the Universe, and since I am a child of the Divine, everything in the Universe is my inheritance.  It is my birthright, and yours!  Each of us has come to this place and this time for a specific reason, and everything we need to accomplish our individual purposes has been provided for us.  All we need to do is ask and be open to receiving.